Nerdy Love

Ryan Everywhere

It was 1st of a new month; New Year ( January 1st) and my birthday.
I had turned 18th.

Legally adult back then!

I was out of every obligation, free and calm.

I had things to do on my own. I had my life and then I met him for the first time. Good looks, good looks and good looks.

Hot as fu*k and eye catching charm. 

Maybe puberty had then knocked my door. It was so unusual; I was always a nerd and my time kill used to be books.

That guy had captured all my attention.

Our first meeting was accidental, I remember it was during the orientation when he was late and maybe it was my luck that he asked me if he could share a little space to rest his butt.

Damn my hormones, possibly the age ( so called adult ; 18 year old) had brought up firing thoughts.

His eyes had the glaze, his voice made me go ooh la la, all his traits were out and about.

His thoughts sent chills down my spine.

Simply I was distracted, I always fantasized about that guy.

"Ryan"; his name.

Coming from same school we were in different department, but who cares? His presence out there is something that mattered.

Days passed, days turned into weeks and finally it had been a month. I could never stop myself from getting over his ideology.

Is this what people name "Love at first sight?"

Or was it just a part of teenage?

My heart fluttered every time I spotted him.

He had all my attention; he never knew about it but all I wanted was him to spot me in the crowd of hundreds. It was what I wanted but things does not go according to the will.

3rd December it was when we first exchanged smile. It was after school when we crossed our path.

That smile brought up a chill again.

I felt so special and excited. "Excited", yes!

Geez! I was being childish but I could not resist that smile. Damn! The smile was for me. Nothing great had happened but a smile from your crush is a big thing.

"Crush", yes I mentioned that! He was my first ever crush.

I was busy figuring out if it was "Love at first sight" or simply a part of "teenage" but then left unveiled I realized he surely had took a spot and turned out to be my first ever crush.