Davyonna's Life

Wild world

Everything is what you make it🙃
Hey you guys my names is Davyonna Mealey. I'm currently 19 years old, I'm the oldest of three brother and one sister, and a proud daughter of Sabrina Young ( love you mom my you Rest In Peace my sweet angel 👼).
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      I guess you can call my life a roller coaster. There's been times I've had good,bad, and worst days, but life is what you make it... right? Truly, I can't answer that because I'm not even threw half of my life right now. I've been living life in the darkness and I've been afraid, trying to escape but never knowing how to. All I want is answers and the person that could answer most of them died when I was 12. My mom was a very beautiful young lady, I'm guessing she was lost and confused to.. well I'm hoping she was. Growing up my mom was very aggressive, she used to beat on me every time she was upset or when I did something wrong. But not just any regular  beatings it was worst. Some times she would use extension cords, 2 by 4's, wooden broom sticks, her fist, or the belt buckle. Sometimes she would go over broad and tie me up and fill the tub up with water and shove me head first or just stick my face under the running water. I didn't know why she did what she did but never did one second go by where I hated my mom.. I loved her unconditionally. I knew she was doing her best. I've watched my mom come home every week body sore because she was donating blood and plasma at the bank just so she could have gass money to give someone so she could go grocery shopping or just to get school supplies or just to have a present for our birthdays. I know your probably wondering why she didn't Just get a job. Well my mom had me at a very young age and was all on her own with my father. After having me her parents shun her and she's been with my dad very since. My daddy was a jail bird and she was doing everything to take care of us and have a wonderful family unlike she did. She was struggling to take care of kids and pay the bills.  And I asked myself why did she stay .. and it finally took me until I was 18 to understand life and to know that's was all she knew she didn't have anybody and why would she leave we didn't talk to our other family so my mom and father were the only things I knew and she wanted to keep our family. She was struggling with life and trying to do it on her own which tore her apart. Eventually CPS got involved which led me and my two little brothers being taken away.
     I was 7 at the time I was with my little brothers they were 3 & 2. I knew that I had to look over them and that's what I tried to do but being so young I was confused and easily manipulated. We where with this mother and daughter foster parents and at first them seemed nice. Taking us places and buying us thing and as a child your like ouuuu and awwww then boom 💥 candy land was over. She treated us horribly...  she lucked us in our room beat us if we ate something or let other foster children beat on us. She mad me do something I regret until this day. She made me fight my lil brother. Y'all probably saying what's wrong with that? A lot I was the oldest I should have known better the things I did was horrible and not right and I wish I could just take it away but I can't what's done was done.

HEY YOU GUYS I JUST WANTED A PUBLIC OPINION ON IF I SHOULD CONTINUE WITH THIS STORY OR NKT JUST MESSAGE ME OR DM ME ON IG @d.avyonna PLEASE TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT IT SO FAR