Exploration

Self-hate

One thing I struggle a lot with is having confidence in myself and loving myself. It's very hard to do. I've been struggling with self-hate (along with many other things) since the 4th grade. I've always felt to blame for a lot of things and I would, still do, put myself down for things that weren't my fault. For example, my mom leaving, my mom going to jail, my dad being upset all the time, ect. That was some of my main issues in 4th grade. I would hide myself from everyone and I would write things about how much I hate myself and how no one liked me. I know now that that's not true but it is still something I feel now. Now though I look in the mirror and point out every little thing wrong with myself. I blame myself for everything. My friend who doesn't know how I feel about myself has even described me as very insecure and it feels weird for other people to know. The hate I have for myself just generally makes me stress out so much which leads us to the next topic. See ya there!