I belong

Dear journal

Dear journal
Hi I am... well that doesn't matter you see I don't fit in at my school I don't know what there problem is I thought they were my friend and  people told me others were making fun of me behind my back and I shouldn't be friends with them anymore right now I don't know who to trust when I was little I could make friends any day but now that I'm older it seems to be my weakest point I'm very lonely and I just broke up with my boyfriend on his birthday so that was kinda mean but he wasn't hanging out with me and I wasn't hanging out with him so I guess it wasn't working out so I broke up with him when I wasn't hanging out with him I was kinda hanging out with my "friends" but I was in the background so no one really talked to me so I just left the group and went on my own. One of my first days at that school I was shy and people wanted to hangout with me and be nice since I was the new person but now that I'm not new and people know me they just got better things to do than look at me but anyway all I've ever wanted was a best friend and soon it will be Christmas and all I want is a best friend sure I want other things too but what I mostly want is someone that would hangout with me at lunch and I don't have to ask them they just come over and sit next to me also someone that would laugh with me, stand up for me, someone I can trust, they would help me when I cry and be the best friend I've ever wanted them i will feel like I belong.  
        Sincerely
                 Someone