reminiscing →→ johnny seo

𝔭 𝔯 𝔬 𝔩 𝔬 𝔤 𝔲 𝔢

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JOHNNY SEO
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HIMSELF
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KIM SAEUN
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PARK HAEUN
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LEE SUNG KYUNG
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LEE SOLJI
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LEE TAEYONG
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HIMSELF
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"Just let him go"

          "He moved on; nso should you"

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"Two years. Two of the most amazing years of my life.

Gone.

And they expect me to just forget about him. How can I forget about what haunts me most?

The phantom scent of his cologne that lingers just long enough for me to notice before it dissipates into thin air.

Or his faint whispers that make my heart stop.

Even the thought of his fingertips brushing over my skin still gives me goosebumps."

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What you just read was a journal entry I wrote while being extremely depressed after a break up with one of the best men that I've let into my life; hence the obnoxious text dividers.
It happened about year ago—merely two days after we broke up. Due to our busy schedules, we never had time for each other. With my university studies and his career, we both decided that we didn't want to hold each other back—or so I thought. The truth was, we have been have some serious problems but neither one of us felt like addressing them so we did what we do best; we ran from them. The relationship itself was toxic so we did the right thing, just not at the right time. We just agreed that the break was based on "mutual" feelings. It was hard the first few months. Especially when netizens started developing dating rumors almost immediately after we confirmed the break up. Unfortunately, the rumors were true. Barely a day had past and my ex love of my life already had his eyes set on someone else.
I was devastated.
For months I would come home and open our memory box, spread out our old polaroids and reminisce on all the wonderful moments we shared together. And then—after months of me obsessing over him— I finally moved on. My heart was slowly beginning to catch feelings for someone else. Technically, two people but one was my best friend so she doesn't count. Unfortunately those two people are still friends with my ex but who cares. Just when I thought that my emotions for my ex had finally ended their wrath on me, I got a text from a blocked caller:

- hey! can we talk?

-um...do I know you?

- it's johnny

And now I'm sitting on my floor, drinking incessantly with my best friend–Lee Solji–as I confess my "undying love" for her. I swear my life won't be a complete wreck by the end of this.

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A/N: I'm OFFICIALLY back with better grammar and new groups to write ffs about. I know I've been inactive for most of the year but I swear on my left titty that I won't be taking any extended breaks anymore. I might have to take an occasional hiatus due to school/personal issues but hopefully I won't be more than a week or so.