Forbidden Fruit

Where it All Began

I walk in with my hoodie on and my head hanging low. I don't know what is it about this place but i always feel this rush of sadness, dissatisfaction, and disappoint hit my body as soon as i pass the threshold of these school doors. I mean who doesn't. I hate this place; but yet i love this place. This is the only place where i feel free to an extent. Its the only place where i can actually feel... man i don't know. Well actually i do i just ......can't talk about it

I walk up a little faster but then i bumped into some boy by accident and dropped everything that was in my hands. "dammit" i mumbled. "I'm sorry I'm pretty clumsy " i say barely looking up into his face. Cause I'm afraid of what he may say; a lot of these people around here are really sum mean ass people. I- i I'm not really like that. "It's ok I'm a little clumsy too." He says cutting me out of my thoughts. He bends down to help me pick my stuff up. "I'm N—" but i pretty much hurried and picked up my things and went about my way before hearing the rest of his response.
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I step into my English 4 class but this time with my head up so i won't bump into anything. I gradually make my way to my seat sit my things down and rest a little till the bell rings at 8 and it's just 7:30. But then everyone starts coming in here loud as hell so i just said forget it and started writing a poem on a piece of paper.

" Many may say I'm dumb and I'm weak
But the things Ive been going though causes me not to speak
But with a mouth like mines it's best to be silent
Cause a sista like me needs sum medicine
Medicine that heals the heart soul and mind
Cause a sista like me just doesn't have the time to just
pack up and be on the stagnant bandwagon
With friends that stab you in the back yeah that happened
Momma and daddy nowhere to be found ..shit story of my life
Walking wit the fake crowd nah not my style and to just
Talk to much yeah that ain't happening
Cause i let my thoughts consume me, i want to go to the bottomless pit of noemi so no one can control my mind
So my silence will always be my damn weapon"
-Noemi (Author Note: Actually written by me Analece ❤️)

I re read it and wipe my tears from my eyes quickly so no one can see. No one can see my red eyes and pinkish face cause it's hidden under my hoodie. I get my phone and take a picture of the paper and save it. I ball up the paper go to the trash, throw it away and sit back in my seat. " Now today we are gonna be reading American Street, does everyone have the book!" Mrs. Klaí says. " Yeah" everyone says. "Good now today's a reading day now....go ahead and read" she says smiling. Then i took this as an opportunity to take a nap. But then i hear Mrs Klaí say " Everyone meet Adonis he's new he—." She says but gets cuts off . "He fine as FUUUUUCKKK" Raina says standing and flaunting herself. She a big hoe and everyone knows but she doesn't care. Sis probably got about 10 sti's her trifling ass makes me sick to my stomach. "....and he'll be sitting right next to you NOEMI across the room from you RAINA." She says pointing me in the back corner of the class. He looks at me raises his eyebrow, smiles and then sits down. I look around in the class and all the thirsty girls are giving me the nastiest face ever. I just roll my eyes and put my head down going back to take a nap. I'm not in for the bs today i already have enough going on.