Cierra
3 a.m.
I looked in my mirror at the red marks on my neck. After everything that happened earlier I left with a Christian and once we got to his house he started tripping. He thought I still felt some way for Gilly and started pushing me. I slapped him which caused him to lose his mind and he choked me. So now here I am with a big red mark on my neck from him squeezing so hard. After he promised he didn't mean too and how he would never put his hands on me again but I don't believe it. I never let a nigga put his hands on me and I'm not bout to start now. I touched my neck winching at the pain. I felt tears start to fall as I thought about how rough he was and now here I am crying silently. "You good ?" I heard a voice ask as my room door opened. I looked up as Chris quietly closed the door behind him. "Yea I'm um I'm fine." I smiled weakly. "Lies, you crying so what's wrong ?" He asked. "It's nothing Chris. You should get back to your girlfriend before she throws a fit." I said looking down as I played with my nails. "She's sleeping and this is not about her right now." He replied. He moved my head side to side as he had his eyes glued to my neck. "What happened to your neck ?" He asked staring at me. I sighed not wanting to tell him but I knew he wouldn't leave it alone until I told the truth. "Christian choked me because he thought I still felt some type of way about you." I admitted. "What ?!" He whisper yelled. "He apologized." I replied. "It doesn't matter Cierra no man has the right to be putting his hands on any female. That shit just not cool." He lectured and he was right. "I know Chris." I said looking down. He moved closer lifting my head up as he wiped the tears. "Don't cry, I just hope you realize this nigga ain't no good." He said staring into my eyes. We both slowly started to lean on before he took a step back. "Um I should go back I don't want Miracle to wake up." He said scratching his head nervously. "Uh Yea you're right..goodnight." I said as he rushed out. We were just inches away from kissing while his girlfriend is in the next room. This is bad, I guess I have feelings for Gilly more then I thought. I laid in bed thinking about what happened. I wish I could just tell him how I felt but it's not that easy.
