The lost love of a galaxy angle.

First love

The first day of 7th grade I fell in love or thought I fell in love with a boy, to be honest here everyone at school called him the Fuck boy of school, now I'm just an innocent girl. Never had I ever thought he would change me, but that thought changed right as he started flirting with me. He's so tall, plays baseball, and sexual, he was everything I was not. But then he asked me out... Stupid stupid me! I said yes. Every night I would get a text "hey baby I want some nudes" or "can I get some nudes I wanna Fuck you", "show me your tits babe" I never did it I got one of my friends to send my boyfriend a nude. He was changing me i never kissed anyone before and yet he held me close and I got on my tipy toes and kissed, every time we saw each other we would kiss, and then one day he pushed me up against a wall and kissed me, it changed me, I wanted everything of him, and he wanted me, but what I didnt k I is that he had other plans. He broke up with me, told me he was sorry and as he did that he put his soft hands on my shoulders. Damn it! I should have know it was coming by the way he was ignoring me? But its hurt even more that I knew it was coming and when it did I wanted to kill myself, the next day  on the track I was running he was running and caught up with me and then asked for my phone? I gave him my phone he took the two blades out of it and threw one and put one in his pocket. He asked to see my arms, I told him no and he grabbed my arm and pulled the sleeves up he smacked my arm to where I almost cried, the cuts they... they hurt so bad. He asked me out again I said yes once again I told him I wouldn't brake his heart is he didn't brake my heart. We lasted for two months almost three months this time and then I found out he was cheating on me... well I'm fucked now, he's playing me so I showed him who was really playing the game, never cheated on him tho, we broke up the next day after an amazing day of hugs and kisses! He once again broke up with me. I got together with a guy named Dennis he was short, cute, and he was like me , he had depression he smoked, and he fell in love with me, he was the first guy that I almost lasted the second longest with we were together for 4 almost 5 months he was the first guys house I stayed over until 12:00Am we cuddled, kissed a few times, played outside on his trampoline, went to the store on our own and I fell and ate shit on ice, we watched a movie I laid down on his lap, and then we went to his house and then I went home. A month after that we broke up and then me and my ex got back together, you know the one I've been talking about yeah. We were together and then we broke up and later the ending of the month I got back with Dennis and we again broke up. The rest well almost the rest of the summer I was single, I tried to kill myself so many times but it never worked, the ending of the summer I got back with my ex and oh yeah. His name is going to be s for now on. Me and s got back together as lasted for about the first two weeks of school and then we broke up for good. I got together with a guy named aj I had my friends talk to him and I kinda just talked to him in school but we broke up after three weeks and I found out that it was a dare to date me. I swore I would never date again, and I didn't until one day I was watching black panther and everything changed for me.