As you agree to fully read the following letter
You're agreeing to enter my state of mind
I highly recommend you to read this carefully
And before i start,never pretend you're happy when you're sad , or you're ok when you're not ok it will only lead to your misery
Enjoy?
Im sick
Im fucking sick of me, I'm fucking sick of you,I'm fucking sick of him, I'm fucking sick of her, I'm fucking sick of them, with all these fake promises fake love fake friends fake YOU, what ever people do or what ever people say , I'm alone I'm fucking alone in this shit even if i am surrounded by millions of people, friends , family , i just feel alone.
What if life as we know it is just a hologram of hell
What if life as we know it is just a dream
And we live just to reproduce energy
What if we just die and
We go no where
What if after we die
We repeat our course of life on another galaxy
What is life
No one can answer my questions and no one will
I can never be satisfied
All these false fuckery
Ooo life is fun
Take a toy from a child he will cry
Give it back and he will be happy
Its FUCKING irritating how people are just fucking retarded
Whats the point
Of living in a world
Where we feel dead
All the time
To me life is an elephant in the room.
Pain is what i feel
I cant keep living like this
Its scary
Crying isn't enough
Cutting is just temporary
Im numb
Im lost
Like you could feel so much pain
Until you stop feeling at all
My mind is more powerful than my self
And no one can stop it
Suicide seems like an option
It does believe me
I need no fucking therapist to rant some shit about me?
Even tho I'm the one talking about my self
but how can he help me if i , my self cant understand my mind set?
If i cant then no one will .
Words don't change shit in this world
Its funny how you can change people
By words
Its hilarious
The way they believe
In words
Just amazing
Its like you tell them this and that
And suddenly they're happier or sadder
Nothing should change
Its like
People are so insecure
About everything
They start to believe everything.
Although I prefer
Happiness to every one in this world
Like
I feel the only joy i find in this life
Is just pleasing people
Like i can be everyones punching bag
Like ill do every thing to help any one
Ill fucking do anything
And i mean anything
But at the same time
I want every single fucking human being on fucking planet earth
TO FUCKING GET HIT BY A TRAIN
SHOT 5 TIMES IN THE BRAIN
ELECTROCUTED ON A CHAIR
THEN THEY STAY ALIVE
TO SEE HOW MISERABLE
THEIR LIFE WILL BE
AND JUST SUFFER
EVERY FUCKING DAY
TILL THEY FUCKING KILL THEM SELVES .
Why do we feel
If its always changing
Why do we feel
Why do we get happy
Why do we get sad
Why do we get angry
How can we just not feel?
Why isn't there a question, why do we get no feelings, why do we not feel
Yet again
No one can answer anything.
I want to die
For me
Death isn't scary
At all
If life is causing this much of a nightmare
Then life is the one who is scary
People are afraid of what they don't understand
And if they don't understand
Death
Then
What if i killed my self
Promises of what i need
Are there
I legitimately want to fucking kill my self
Any way possible
If it gets me out of this trash place
Im more than happy
I don't care if i cause sadness to anyone
Eventually they will all forget about you
At some point
It will all fade away.
We live in a society
Where people
Have to be accepted
And its funny
How people try their hardest
To please one another.
I believe the future
Is a hole
A dark
Endless
Hole
Its gonna be a bad time
To be around
Probably wont be
Because i already feel
My end is near
Please
Save me.
Now this letter does not imply to anyone's life
This is my life
My mind
And no one should take this for granted
No one should relate
If you made it this far
Well
Now you have a perspective
About what life really is
Bye?
