disgusting issues

My disgusting issue

i have an issue that most people have i hate "litterbugs". its something i cant stand if i see something at the floor i always say, "those damned litterbugs" When i see them while my mom is driving and i see a bag heading straight towards us its scary and can cause an accident....... which it did... my mom died 2 years ago and a half to be exact. There was a bag that got stuck to the side of the windshield and covered it up i can remember specifically how it happend me telling my mom to park to the side but i saw my mom going more left than to the right we were heading straight to a truck. i woke up at the hospital just wondering i saw people crying beside my mom then i heard my dad say something i couldn't clearly her" shes dead..... why..... my beautiful wife" at that moment i knew my mom died they saw the door open but the nurse was also there we both walked in and as if the nurse heard me she said please step out i asked the nurse what she was doing she was replying with a soft voice saying "i hope she wakes up from her coma" i replied saying "yeah i hope so too''

but i found her rude so i went back to my room. i found it weird that whenever i was near my family they would always ignore me i did nothing but i went to my moms room when they left. i saw my dad pass my room crying but he never came in as if he was ignoring me too. but i wish he didn't i want to hear him calling me "my lil princess" i don't wanna be ignored but i let it go. he need space he just lost someone he loved, he deserves space.

~1 week later~

im singing a song to my mom a song she loves very much "lost on you" by LP she loved that song so much i got interupted when i saw white stuff coming out of my moms mouth she,  she started shaking so much it felt like and earthquake was happening i started screaming as if i was being stabbed or murdered i went and asked for help outside they started running towards her. i waited 5 minuets and 23 seconds to be exact. when he came out my whole family which i didnt know was here, the doctor said "im sorry we lost her" my dad broke down everyone cried to point where screams of grieve and agony can be heard somebody then tapped my shoulder and said "it's time to go home sweetie" i turn around and see 

its my mother......

then i started to hear the things my dad said clearly 

"shes dead my lil princess why is she dead and my wife, my beautiful wife"

and it was all because of a bag......