All Alone She Sat

The Next Morning.

*Courtney's POV*

I woke up to a beautiful sunshine. I already knew today was going to be a bad day because My Instagram newsfeed was full of brutal comments from 5 to 20 minutes ago. Why are people so hateful now in days!! My eyes are still puffy from yesterday. Damn I must have been crying a waterfall of tears ! -Knock - Come in. Hey pooh, I was just checking if you were up for school. Okay. "Well get ready for school unless you want to be late!" Okay i said in a lazy voice. I DONT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL! I screams into my pillow. I took 5 more minutes of sleep. I MEAN WHO DOSENT!!!?? When the 5 minutes where over I got up and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and take a shower. I came out about 20 Minutes later. I got dressed and put my hair in a messy bun. As soon as I was done i went downstairs to ear breakfast. PANCAKES!!! "Hurry up pooh we only have about 15 minutes left." Um ok? WHATS WRONG WITH MOM!! SHES ACTING LIKE IM 7 YEARS OLD! I said in my head. Is she finally going to change! Gosh i hope so! I also said in my head. I finished break fast just in time! I was waiting in the car while my mom got ready. I decided to check my Insta feed. Of course brutal comments. I was done with bullshit for now and decided to listen to some music. I mostly have sad songs in my phone. I listen to my favorite song called Her Last Words By Courtney Parker. I started to sing. " Just an average girl, she always wore a sime, she was cheerful and happy for a short while, Now she's older things are getting colda, life's not what she thought she wished someone had told haa, tried to stop herself from crying almost every night, but she knew there was no chance of feelig alright, summer came by all she wore was long sleeves cause the cuts on her wrist where bleeding through you see." I stopped at that part because my mom just pulled over to the school. I was like in tears because of that song! But I had eyedrops so it really didnt matter. " Okay we're here! Here's your lunch. Bye have a good time" Ok thanks mom and i'll try to. I got out of the car and walked into the hallway looking down to my feet. Of course i find Ciara kissing Jake. What a friend and boyfriend. I ignored it and walked into the cafeteria. I had no friends at school all alone I sat. I let out a fake laugh. Its funny how Courtney Parker and I both have the same name and she wrote a song that totally is about me. I started singing to where i left off a few mins ago- She had no friends at school all alone she sat and if someone were to notice she would blame the cat , but those cuts they were no mistake cause no one cared enough to save her from this self hate.. I was tearing all over again.. "Aye yo anorexic chick! Is your name Ana! Haha!" I stayed shut." Oh look shes crying! lmaoo this bitch needa get a life!" I stayed shut again. That's when he ( idk his name idek who he is!) sat next to me and tried to touch me. I grabbed his hand and twisted it and threw him on the floor. LEAVE ME ALONE FOR GOD SAKES! Everyone just stared at me. It was really quiet. I mean SILENT. I went to the bathroom in tears. Why is this happening to me. Someone help me! I was crying hard, i mean really hard cause i could barely breathe! I decided to calm down and splash some water on my face. A few minutes later my math teacher told me to go to the main office and that they called my mom and she's worried. I went to the main office. My mom was in tears. I was confused. She gave me a hug and whispered in my ear " im sorry i know its hard for you bbg. Just have faith in yourself." I couldn't do anything but cry. I can't have faith in myself! I'm not that type of person. How can i have faith with no one at school the only person who I talk to is my mom.. Anyways, I went home afterwords . I laid in my bed thinking about what happened a few minutes ago. Was I right to do what I did!? I'm glad I did it though, everyone might find me as the don't play around girl. Anyways since everyone was at school that meant people won't comment on my picture!! I unlocked my phone and went on Instagram 45 comments. 45 COMMENTS! Wow I'm so famous. Anyways, I went to my favorite Instagram page, Ipostvidz. It's full of vines. Just as I was going to see a vine someone tagged me in a video. How much I bet it's the video of what happened earlier, Yup. " Lmao, are you also going to harm me only bc of a comment! Stupid ugly bitch." I commented, Leave me alone dick face why don't you go to hell, I'm tired of your shit. He commented, " I'm so scared oh my." I deleted my comment so it could look like he's talking to himself. There was more negative feed so I just logged out of Instagram. I started listening to music. SAIL WAS THE FIRST SONG TO PLAY!!! MY 2nd fav song!!! Sail! MAYBE I SHOULD CRY FOR HELP! MAYBE I SHOULD KILL MY SELF! Those are literally the repeated words to the song. Who cares though! The next song that came in was I'm in here by Sia. I started to sing, I'm in here can anybody see me can anybody help, I'm in here a prisoner of history can any body help, can't you hear my call, are you coming to get me now, I've been waiting for you to come asking me, I need you to hold all the sadness I can not live with inside of me.. And I kept singing till the end. The next song was I knew trouble by Taylor Swift. After that song I fell asleep, on the cold hard ground.

I woke up a few hours later. It was now 5:48. I went to check on my mom. She was eating serial. Hey mom. "Hey, How are you honey?" Im okay , what about you? Same. "I made chicken with rice for you. Its in the microwave." Ok, thanks.. " What happened?" What happened what. "What happened in school?" I prefer not to talk about it at this momment. "Okay, but I have to know." Look at my Instagram feed and press the video that I'm tagged in and you'll see. "Okay." I went upstairs to my room because I didn't want to see my mothers reaction. She usually over reacts. 16 seconds later she came up to my room. "Why'd you physically touch that boy?" He was testing me. "Oh" Yeah. " Well i'm going to take a nap." Ok, bye. "Byez" I checked Instagram to find another brutal comment from Jack. That's it i'm not going to be his fucking slave. Im going to make it straight by sending him a message thats brutal. Lets see how he feels about that.