Omniscient

~Prologue~

Warning: Suicide attempt and immature name calling could trigger some readers. Read at your own risk please.

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My dark past is all I ever see anymore. First it was the name calling then it was actual physical and emotional damage to my brain and body.

I never told my parents anything, because they don't care or they will say it's my own fault. They don't understand, nobody does. When I even try to talk to somebody about the abuse I have been getting they just pretend they can't hear me or just actually tell me they don't care.

I cry out to someone everytime and they just walk away from me, completely avoiding my existence.

I cry to bed, to school, and even to the store because I know that if I tell, then they will just ignore me.

I can't look pretty without being called a slut and a tramp, so I act like I know everything. They started calling me these names when my mom prostituted with Jacob; my bullies dad. The whole school found out when my worst bully in the whole school told everyone. He even said that he joined in with his dad and started banging my mom until she cried out his name.

I feel so sick all the time that I don't even eat, or get out of the house unless I'm going to school.

So now I stand here by the sink with a razor blade to my wrist, contemplating if I should kill myself and finally be free, or stay alive and live in shame.

I am at a crossroad right now.

Please help me decide, god. I know you hear me.

Answer me or I will end it all now without even thinking, and I will go straight back to hell.

Please.

Please?

I need help.

God?

I need you.

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Wow. I literally cried when I wrote this, and I hope none of you will go through this or put anyone through this.

It is certainly not a joke.

You can cry, just let it out.

I hope you liked this prologue and would like to read more. If you did I would greatly appreciate it if you would vote and comment. Thank you.