Seizing Hell (Ellington Series #3)

Kabanata 22

Kabanata 22

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I remained silent that day. Google never questioned me about what happened between me and Lucifer, I don't think na kaya ko ring ikwento to her ang bawat details. It's too painful for me.

He dug a huge hole inside my heart for the past months and he's all I could ever think of. Araw-araw kong naiisip kung totoo bang minahal niya ako or sadyang he just wanted a thrill kaya he flirted with me. He's a professor while I am his student. Sobrang thrill nga naman ang meron doon kaya siguro natuwa siya.

I don't know. I don't really know.

Bakit ang dali para sa kaniyang iwanan ako? Siguro kulang. Kulang 'yong pagmamahal na nararamdaman ko mula sa kaniya. And when did I start talking about love? This is so bullshit and kadiri!

I had my own graduation and of course, ang diploma ko. Masaya dapat ako kasi sa wakas, graduate na ako! Gosh, finally! Hello college life, hello own condo unit, and hello to the independent version of myself.

Finally! I shouldn't call this freedom since hindi naman naging mahigpit sa akin sila Mommy. They never failed to showered me with love and everything that they could give to me. Mula sa pinakamaliit na hiling ko hanggang sa pinakamalaki ay naibibigay nila. I'm lucky to have them as my parents actually.

Sa dalawang buwan na lumipas, I learned how to value myself more. Hindi ako kailanman umiyak para sa mga bagay na hindi ko makuha but I cried for him. He's a real jerk for making me cry and for hurting me! He punched Barachiel pa nga kasi nakita niya kaming naghahalikan? Ano ngayon, right?

I kept on saying sorry to Barachiel after that day. Guilty ako for what happened pero ayos lang daw sa kaniya. At least he get to make out with me. That's his logic that I don't really find logical.

"You know, Hell, you should stop begging for love." sabi ni Barachiel nang makausap ko siya sa video call. "Hayaan mong ang pagmamahal ang maghabol sa'yo!"

He's not wearing anything aside from his boxer shorts. She showed it to me pa nga and it has this Iron Man designed.

Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. "Don't fuck with me, Baki. Love's chasing you but you're running away!"

"Excuse me? Choosy ako! Hindi dahil hinahabol ako ng mga puso ay pagbibigyan ko na sila!" aniya sabay tawa.

He's a great person and I love his company. I can say na platonic ang relationship namin. That's all. Nothing more, nothing less.

While I was eating with Mom and Dad, I saw how their eyes twinkled to each other everytime na magkikita ang eyes nila. You can really tell na in love si Mommy kay Daddy and vice versa.

Sana one day makahanap din ako ng ganiyang klase ng love. 'Yong love na tingin pa lang, kita na kaagad ang pagmamahal.

"Do you want a vacation, hija?" Daddy asked.

Wala naman akong planong puntahan but I want to go to Cagayan for Legend. He's alone doon and college na rin siya. Maybe we could hang out before pasukan? That would be better! I have so many questions din kasi and I haven't seen Leader for awhile now. He's always busy with his studies while Sylvester's busy sa kaniyang escapades.

"Cagayan, Dad." nakangiti kong sabi bago ko isinubo ang food ko. "I missed hanging out with Legend na rin kasi. Baka he's a magsasaka na there."

"Okay then," his lips turned into a huge smile. "Pack your things, you'll be having a vacation in Cagayan."