Speak Yourself

(I just wanted to post it here) (what do u think?)

so, My name is Afaf , Moroccan girl,
I'm 16, My life isn't really good and not really bad, I have my parents beside me and my friends too, I did alot of mistakes in the past that i regret,
       --but as namjoon said, "Yesterday's me is still me" , and it's a good way to be proud of yourself when u'll find out that u skipped ur faults and changed for the best--

I'm always stuck with health problems, and my parents have to pay for my medicament, that's why I'm always feeling like a heavy burden on them, Also because of my poor health, they (and people in general) started thinking that i'm just lying about my sickness and making things bigger than they're

I have a weak personality and a very sensitive heart, I can easily get tears in my eyes, and I'm always afraid of expressing myself

I had fake friendships, fake feelings, and I was the one who didn't know, as well as suffering from social anxiety ; I used to be very naive,
I used to feel that I'm hated & that people were avoiding me,
I was depressed from time to time, when No one ever knew, And no one could help, I hated myself and stayed lonely sometimes ; I didn't have someone with whom I can share my feelings 
...
But it's all about time and patience, there's still that time when i found The real friends that everyone deserves , that wasn't far from the moment I discovered BTS...
They're truly my saviours, Their music and personalities, They helped me a lot, I felt the true love they show for their fans,  And because of them, my personality improved, I'm loving myself now & I'm learning to speak for myself...
what excites me ? for now, it's BTS, I'm not exaggerating, but they can easily control my every single moment's mood.
 I love them so much, I'm proud of them, they are more than just Idols, And I'm really grateful i knew such legends ♡