Original poems and stories

Daughter

I woke up this morning
Forgetting it all
We've been planning this day for months
I was so excited

I woke up extra early
To make us your favorite breakfast
For our special day

Last night I put out your favorite princess dress
The one you've been dying to show everyone
We've been planning this for months
You were so excited to come to my work
For bring your child to work day

But as I walked into your room
To see your little bed empty, it hit me like a knife to the heart
You aren't here anymore
How could I have forgotten my baby girl is dead?

We had this whole thing planned out
First I'd make us your favorite double chocolate chip pancakes
Then we'd get you into your Cinderella dress
And go to my work

I'd introduce you to everyone
And when it would be nap time
I'd take your fake glass high heel and hide it
So when you woke up you could go looking for it
And ask everyone for clues
Then once you found it
We'd go to your favorite place for lunch

After that we'd go back and I'd let you play games on my computer
And draw your pictures
Then we'd go to see the movie you've been dying to see
And then we'd go out for ice cream

We've been planning this day for months
It was supposed to be the perfect day
But instead I'm sitting in your closet
Clutching everything that still smells like you
Tight to my chest, trying to talk to you
It just hurts so much

It was hard enough when your mother died
But I guess she thought it was her turn to have you

We had an amazing 3 years
But all I can think about is what you're missing
You'll never get to have a first day of school
You'll never get to have your first kiss
Or get to have Prince Charming take you away on his horse like you've always wanted
You'll never get to graduate school
And I'll never get to walk you down the isle
And you'll never have a baby that you can love as much as I love you
Or watch it grow
But I guess I never got to see you grow either

You were my best three years
And I'd do anything to just have one more moment with you

Sitting here trying to talk to you
Feels like I lost you all over again
Because I was looking forward to this day and I forgot
It feels like you died in my arms all over again