I Will Never Love You~Jenzie

16. He's Back.

After Science I quickly packed up and raced out of the classroom. The Gang have been staring at me all day, waiting to get me alone. None of my friends are in this class so this is the perfect time for them to strike. I need to be quick, quicker than ever before. The whole day I've been in a constant state of fear, kids have been slamming their lockers closed all day. I don't know what happened to me earlier. It was like seeing it and hearing it just triggered something in me. I swallowed as I walked up to my locker and carefully opened it and started putting books it it. "OH MACKENZIE!" I heard an all too familiar voice shout. I immediately fell into a panic just throwing all my shit into my locker not thinking about what I need and what I don't. Footsteps approached me and all the air was released from my lungs as I was pushed into my locker from behind. My heartbeat was going a thousand miles a minute and I didn't dare to turn around. A large hand grabbed my arm and spun me around to come face to face with Caden Conrique's toothy grin. I tried to form words but my mind was blank, my conscience was screaming at me to run, fight, do something. But I couldn't. I could only look at the smirking faces of them all, Sophia, Nadia, Dylan, Ruby, and Maisy. "So what have you been up to lately? Besides avoiding us, of course." Nadia piped up. I tried to get out of Cadens grasp but his grip tightened and I knew it was going to leave a bruise from how hard he was squeezing. I looked at Caden with a look of pure hatred,"Get the fuck off me, you donkey," I spat, surprising myself with this newfound confidence. Caden slammed me back into the locker and Sophia walked up to me and got right in my face. "You better shut the hell up, Ziegler." I scoffed. "You fucking asked me a question you stupid bitch." I retorted. Her eyes darkened and she stepped back just as someone else walked up who I recognized as Hunter Rowland. My heart felt like it was going to burst right through my chest at the sight of him. What the hell is he doing here? He's supposed to be in Iowa, in that program. Nonononono, this can't be happening. I didn't realize that I was talking out loud until Hunter walked up and gripped my jaw in his hand and moved his lips to where they were almost touching my ear and whispered, "Miss me?" then kissed my neck right under my jaw. Memories of the last time he was here flashed in my mind and I completely lost it, squirming in Cadens grasp and trying to get away from Hunter as fast as I could. "Go away," I said breathlessly, begging him not to touch me again. "Please," His lips just turned into a sick grin before he smashed my head back against the locker I was pinned to and proceeded to kiss down my neck and play with the hem of my shirt before slipping his hand up it. I felt like my body was on fire and all I wanted to do was die right then and there. This can't be happening again, I thought he was gone for good. My survival instincts took over and I got the courage to knee him in the balls, causing him to double over and temporarily move away from me. "You think you can just touch him like that?!" Dylan screeched and walked over to me with a deathly look in her eyes. "Yeah, since when did you get the right to just hit us?" Sophia said and took a step towards me as well. "Maybe the lesson we taught you wasn't clear enough last time," Ruby said and ran her fingers over my cast. My eyes widened as I saw Sophia look down at it and back up to me with a smirk. Cadens grip on my right arm caused it to go semi numb due to the lack of blood flow. Sophia shoved me, hard, back into the locker and got just as close as Hunter did. "I fucking hate you, ziegler. Why can't you just fucking die? Why did you come back to school?" I couldn't say anything, my eyes were going back and forth between staring at Sophia and staring at Hunter who was recooperating. This can't be happening today, my heart is breaking through my ribcage from how fast it's beating , my breathing is too fast and erratic for air to actually make it through my body. The memories of Hunter playing in my head and the feeling of my body pinned up against the locker was getting to be too much. "God, you ugly, fat, whore maybe I should break it again!" Sophia yelled and smashed my hand on the opening of my locker and grabbed the door, ready to strike. I saw her pull it back and my mind screamed at me to do something. This time I listened and ripped my good arm out of Cadens grasp and smashed my fist into Sophia's face. She fell back onto the floor, stunned at what just happened. Everyone was. No one moved for a second but immediately after, they all jumped on me. Caden grabbed my shoulders and shoved me across the hallway into the other set of lockers. I hit my head on them and felt slight dizziness but was soon pinned to the lockers again and surrounded by them all, with Cadens forearm pressed against my throat, preventing me from breathing, eyes staring into mine. As far as I could tell, Sophia was still on the ground surrounded by Ruby and Maisy. Hunter was right next to me and he didn't even look mad, but I knew behind those eyes there was an anger that I was more afraid of than anything else in this world.

"Baby, why'd you do that? You know you're gonna pay for it." he cooed before Caden moved over and immediately Hunters body was pressed against mine and I could feel that crushing pressure of his body against mine that I haven't felt for nearly two years. He kissed my neck again and shoved his hand down the front of my pants just like he always used to do. I squeezed my eyes shut and let a weak little whimper escape my lips as his fingers penetrated me for the first time in so long, causing pain to streak through me at his unwanted entrance. The dirty feeling came back to me, all of the things he did to me, all of the times he touched me. The memories smashed through the walls I built up as if they were made of glass. I tried to push him off of me without opening my eyes so I didn't have to see him but he just pushed harder into the locker. His other hand came up to touch my chest and that sent me over the edge, tears were streaming down my cheeks and I was mumbling incoherently telling him to stop but he wouldn't. He never did. He whispered vugler things into my ear as he kept going trying to get himself off and I struggled to no avail until he finally released himself in his pants and moved away from me, panting. I slid down against the lockers and brought my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. I buried my face into my knees trying to block out what happened by counting to 100 and denying that it did. I felt Hunters dirty fingers lift my chin up to make me look him in the eyes and saw him smile before forcefully kissing me and walking away.The rest of them stared at me in disbelief for a second before walking away too, leaving me in the hallway with my face buried in my knees that I was hugging to my chest trying to get a grasp on the reality of what just happened.

My rapist is back, and he's ready for me again.