Connor x Reader Imagines

Machine! Connor X F reader part 2

Warning: Angst, description of grandmothers death - do not read if you are sensitive to this!

Pairing: Connor X Female Reader

Summary: it's been 6 months since the incident. Y/N has recovered well, however, her heart is still painfully beating for Connor - she's had enough.

Enjoy :3

6 months.

6 painful months went by since the incident, yet you feel like it's been an eternity. You didn't care that you were left with scars on your back... No, that was the least of your worries - what worried you was the fact that your heart kept beating for a certain android.

Connor.

Things have not been easy for you since you came out of the hospital; sure your back killed for the first two weeks, but it wasn't nearly as painful as your heart. Your dearest heart, the key to your darkest of secrets - your heart, beating for what it wants most, yet it shall never reach it's desire.

Sitting in the office, you were debating whether you are making the right decision or not. Sure this job paid enough for rent and groceries, but you can't stand him. Being near him every second was suffocating - as if you were constantly being drowned.

'if I leave this job, where else would I go?' you thought to yourself. At that moment you decided to search for any available jobs.

"lieutenant Y/N? May I ask what you are looking for?" Connor asked emotionlessly.

Connor hasn't changed much, still the same android as before. You would've thought he would show just a hint of emotion, but you were wrong. You knew he was hiding something important, yet you didn't want to pry; you already knew what his answer would be. He's not allowed to feel things, he's not allowed to love, care or even be happy - but there's something stopping him from showing them, you don't know what, and frankly you don't care anymore-- you don't want to care.

"nothing that should worry you Connor." you stated in a firm, yet tired voice. You felt him stand behind you, it's like you could almost hear the gears working inside him. Almost. 'pay attention to this Y/N, now's not the time to be distracted.'

You found one job that seemed decent,

"Health & Social Care Assistant.

Desired skills:

Possess good people & communication skills.

Able to work as part of a team.

Physically able to carry out work involving moving and handling.

Personal qualities:

Caring and compassionate.

Respectful of people’s rights.

Hardworking, reliable and trustworthy.

Good at problem solving, optimistic and outgoing."

'it's got good pay too, I think I'll go for this one' you thought. It did seem nice, throughout your life you've taken care of many Elderly people, including your Grandmother and Grandfather - you remember the joy of spending time with them, you loved them so much. Until that dreadful day came. Your grandfather was the first to go, you remember his words as if it were yesterday, 'pursue your dreams, don't wait for them' was his last words. Your grandmother was sad after he went, it made her dementia worse - she would always ask where her husband has gone, sometimes she would ask if you can make him dinner. It was hard, but you managed to help your grandmother as much as you can. When she was in her death bed, she pulled you close, gripping your hand and squeezing as hard as she could, she said 'don't let negative energy consume you, do what you want, give your heart what it desires most, for you only have one chance in life' and with the last breath, she exhaled - her hand going limb. The heart monitor showed a line along with a loud 'beep'. It was heartbreaking for you to watch, but you will always cherish what she said to you. After, you decided to help out the elderly, it was a hard job but very rewarding.