Twisted Secrets BxB

Chapter 1

Before I start with the story, it's time I explain a few things. I've been gone for a while because I needed to get away from a few things and start working on my own life until I was perfectly fine with writing again. I loved writing and that's how I hidden myself away from all the negativity in my life and it helped for a certain amount of time. As years went on, things got extremely difficult to the point writing became a chore as people begged me to update every day and I got put under so much pressure to update every day.
At the time of writing, I was about 13/14 years old, so I couldn't deal with the pressure as good as I could now. Now that I've matured, settled in with college, I am happy to continue my writing again after a long while of going off and on with my writing. I am happy to return with this story I've planned for a while, so I hope you guys give me a chance again to get back with my stories and enjoy them again!
This story might start off slow at first as this is going to be the first book in the series however I still hope you guys give it a chance.
Thank you. I hope you enjoy!

Chapter 1
Summer was finished which I couldn't believe how fast it went. I spent a lot of my time with Dean who was my best friend since we were babies considering our moms were also close friends since school. Maybe that was why the summer went by so quick, countless sleepovers, gaming all night with each other, going out when the weather wasn't overly too hot and of course, laughing and joking around with each other about my silly crush, Alex.

Currently, we were both walking to school for our first day. It was silent for a few minutes as we walked down the sidewalk which was normal for our first day, it was like an accidental tradition we do. ''Hey,'' I spoke up. ''How was your last day?'' Maybe not the best thing to talk about but I couldn't think of anything else, also the silence was starting to suffocate me, silence was never a good thing for me, especially when I'm with my best friend.

He smirked whilst shrugging, ''could've been better, I would've rather spent the day gaming with you or even going to the cinema, but my mom thought differently, Chris, she thinks I'm depressed.'' He paused for a second, kicking a stone whilst in the progress, it was like he was being careful with his words, trying to put a limit to words on this subject, I don't blame him though. ''I mean I understand the worry, I'm her son but I don't like the way she's putting different words from my mouth and telling her concerns to some doctor I have never met. Ever since she divorced my dad and my sister went with him, she thinks I'm struggling to cope, I mean it's difficult, I won't lie, but I'm not depressed about that.'' He stopped again.
Depressed about that? Was he depressed about something else he wasn't telling me? I knew his parents was going through a divorce over the summer, but Dean never wanted to talk about it so right now, I didn't want to interrupt him, it's rare Dean even comes out with his feelings, even if we are best friends. He always listened to me when I needed to talk about things and his advice seemed so professional like, he always knew what to say without making things awkward and somehow, things slowly repaired as he helped. But I wasn't like him in that aspect. I really tried but the fear of saying the wrong thing and making the situation worse was always something that played on my mind.

''I'm okay, Chris, really, I am fine.'' He said, ''I guess I miss my dad and my sister but with school starting again, it's going to distract me away from all my thoughts.''

I nodded and pulled at the straps on my backpack to put it in a comfier position on my back as it started to ache. ''As long as you are okay. Just tell me if you need anything, you know I'm a message or call away, also we live across from each other so just come over and visit anytime.'' I smiled, giving him a slight pat on the side of his arm. ''But you know what Dean, it's so unfair how you are so good at comforting and giving advice and then there is me who is bad at it, no wonder you tell me barely anything.'' I laughed jokingly.

He glanced at me and put his head down, letting out a quiet laugh under his breath. ''I don't think you've noticed but you help a lot just by being in my presence. I am good with the advice and comforting and you are great with the distraction of people's demons. You are good with helping, just in a different way to me which is okay and beneficial.'' He said, looking up to me and giving me a cheesy smile.

There it was. In the distance, the school was slowly creeping up towards us. We were not in the bad crowds of school, so we never really got bullied, or the teachers didn't despise us, and we had a reasonable group of friends. I liked pretty much everyone in the group except from Blake who always seemed aggressive towards me. Not physically but verbally. I don't know what his problem with me was, but he was fine with Dean, so I must have said something that might offended him, or he didn't like something I did, I couldn't tell. Whenever he could, he would say a snarky comment or try to get under my skin, but I didn't like the comment sink in, so I normally shrugged it off anyway.

Already, from a distance away, I could hear the laughing from all students of the school as they waited for the bell to go off, which indicates for everyone to go into the building. I could hear music going off in the distance, more likely the students that isolate themselves away from other groups and sit in the corner by the wall, listening to music that blared loudly into the yard. The music was more likely a distraction to avoid talking to each other within the group. A group of jocks ran past us, shouting and throwing some ball in a weird formation of a shape as they approached the school, bumping into any person that didn't move out of the way for them.

''Idiots.'' Dean mumbled as we closed in the gap between us and the school. ''One thing I wasn't looking forward for was the jocks. All they seem to do is throw their balls around, boast about how much muscle mass they gained from one day at the gym and how much steroids they took before the 'big football game' which is ran by the school.'' He shook his head. ''I see nothing big about some game that the school runs, I'm sure they only do it to get into girls' beds.'' He added, laughing at himself.

I nodded in agreement, laughing with him. At this point, we just walked past the gates and now on the school premises, waiting for the bell to go off now. ''Want to find the others? I'm assuming they will be here beforehand since they always beat us to school.'' I saw him puff out his cheeks whilst he was thinking, normally it was a quick yes but this morning, it was very different, usually I don't need to ask either, it was the first thing we do but right now, he was hesitant. ''It's okay if you don't want to, we can go and find a bench until the bell goes.'' I added, trying to avoid putting any pressure on him.

''No, lets find them. But they know nothing about my parents. I kind of avoided any social interaction with them, I just went out with you. Nothing personal but I didn't want to hang out with too many people and being with a group was difficult at the time.'' He admitted, fondling with his keyring that hung off the side of his bag.

I nodded understandingly as I looked around the yard. ''Well that's fine with me, I swear I will keep my mouth shut.'' I smiled as I met eye contact with Jessica. ''Found them'' We scurried across the yard, trying to not bump into any of the groups that were emerged closely together, just in case, I apologised as I accidently might have stood on someone's foot or even got to close as I tried to go through a tight space full of people.

There they all were, Jessica, Kieron, Georgia and of course, Blake. I quickly took my eyes away from Blake and turned towards Jessica who was beaming at the both of us. ''Hey guys!'' She gave me and Dean a hug, slowly lingering a bit longer on Dean. ''And you had me worried. You barely messaged me back or even wanted to hang out, are you okay?'' She frowned. Jessica was the most caring in the group, she always knew something was up and she generally cared about you. She was like Dean, but female.

He nodded and smiled at her. ''Sorry, it was a long summer, I had the flu for most of it and then after I had no energy to go out as I was recovering.'' He lied, giving her a reassuring rub on the arm. ''I didn't want you guys to have it, it was awful.''

Blake came over to Dean and gave him a fist bump, ''Must've sucked dude, that explains the lack of socialisation between us two as well, I was going to ask the same question as Jessica. As long as you are okay now, I don't want to get your germs.'' He joked, trying to hide behind Jessica, using her as some sort of shield.

''Really? You would use me as some sort of flu shield? How gentlemen like.'' She turned towards Blake and glared at him.

''I can't believe you put the word gentlemen and Blake together, them two are nothing alike.'' Dean joked. The glare released from Jessica's face and she burst into a fit of giggles. Blake pretended to look hurt.

''I can confirm, that flu is gone. He's back to his normal self.'' Blake said, putting his head into a headlock jokingly and letting him go just as quick as he done it. I laughed silently since I was loving the fact Blake said nothing to me yet, also if I stay quiet, he might not notice that I'm there. If that's a thing, I don't know, I think it's a comfort thought for myself.

''Good to see you both!'' I looked down to see Georgia sitting down on the floor still focusing on whatever she was drawing. She looked up for a few seconds, pushing her glasses higher up on her face as they were lower down her nose. She always loved to have a pen and paper in her hands and she would sit down for hours and just draw, she will be that quiet, you forget she's even there however she does pipe up in some conversations. ''Sorry, I'm just focusing on a new picture and since I have so many ideas for this one, I can't chat long, I promise I will catch up with you both!'' She quickly added and then she continued back to her drawing. She was the nerdy type however she wasn't the stereotypically nerdy where nerds were good at maths or science, she was nerdy with art. I loved that about her. No one literally had a problem with her. She was too quiet to even put a flaw on that girl and that's why anyone in the school could talk to her.

Kieron was good friends with Blake however he didn't act like an ass towards me. ''Hey Dean! Hey Chris.'' He said cheerfully. ''Ready for your first day?'' I saw Blake glance at Kieron but nothing else happened further so I'm assuming I was in the safe spot at the moment. I mean should I even answer him due to Blake being around? That would look rude and ignorant and that isn't me at all.

I ignored the feeling and the thoughts and answered, trying to pretend that Blake didn't exist in this moment in time. ''Well better now than never.''

Kieron was a great guy, unlike Blake. I'm sure Blake was a good guy to, but I never received that side of him so from my prospective, Blake wasn't a good person. I don't talk to Kieron as much due to Blake, but I do know he desperately tries to have a longer conversation than 2 minutes that we normally have. He lives with Blake now due to his parents always fighting and I saw he was slowly turning into Blake as he recently started to drink heavier and smoke. I never really mentioned it since it was none of my business and I'm not that close to even mention my concerns to him.
As I turned my head away from Kieron, that's when I saw him. Alex. He was one of the most popular in the school which never surprised me in the slightest, it's been that way for years. All the guys wanted to hang out with him, invite them to their little individual groups, a lot of the girls wanted to be with him and tried so hard, yet it didn't happen since he got with Victoria. He was a player a few years ago and he would move on quickly however as he matured, he became a better person and settled in with Victoria, which I guess was good because he was no longer a typical player but that means he was stuck to Victoria. He loved her, and you could tell.

As usual, he walked into the yard with Victoria latched underneath his arm, they were laughing about something, more likely something he said to her. I was jealous. I had feelings for Alex, a silly little crush people would say, and I've only ever spoke to Dean about it and he's kept that secret to himself ever since.

I didn't mean to stare but I must of as Alex looked up from Victoria and made eye contact with me, the smile not removed from his face. There's that feeling again, the spiral of forever falling happened inside my stomach. It was a spiral slide that never ended which caused a huge eruption of the constant butterflies. I wanted to make my way over to him and say 'hello.' Or even just have one conversation but that was the problem, if I did ever get the chance to talk to Alex, what is it all for? He has a girlfriend he is happy with and for all I know, he is straight, I wasn't too sure but it's always the case. So, if I spoke to him, I knew I was hurting myself, he was so close yet so far from me, also I'm not the kind who want couples to split because I'm not happy about it.

I sighed, and peered down at my shoes, breaking all eye contact. I kept away from him all this time to protect myself and him. I cared. All my friends were chatting on together, except from Georgia who was engrossed with her new drawing, but I couldn't hear a word what they were talking about, even though they were just in front of me. All their words seemed to be muffled, I wasn't concentrating anymore. I know I wasn't.

Finally, I looked up again, looking at Alex who had somehow made his way through the crowd to get to his usual group. Within a few seconds, he turned around, staring at me again. Was I making it that noticeable? Quickly, I tore my eyes away and focused on something else. It was the trees that were swaying in the wind, the leaves seemed to be louder than anything else now, even louder than everyone talking and the music blasting. I watched a leaf that dislodged from the tree branches and slowly drifted through the air, swirling and moving side to side as it made its way to the floor. I watched that leaf that was once full of life then get stood on.

I sighed and focused on Alex, however this time, I tried to make it a little more unobvious. But he was much closer than before, away from his group, mostly away from Victoria. It seemed like he was walking in this direction but there wasn't anything here that he needed. I held my breath as I noticed that Alex, he was moving towards me. I turned to my friends to see if they noticed but they were in a deep conversation that seemed they forgotten where they even are. I looked back in Alex's direction and he was around 10 seconds away from me. I smiled at him, just out of my nervousness and I'm sure he pulled a smile back at me.

The bell rung loudly. People stopped what they were doing and moved towards the building, I didn't notice how loud I was breathing but it was loud enough for Dean to come back to my side. ''You okay?'' He asked. Without answering, I looked where Alex would've been, and it hurt. He stopped, looking at me, it didn't last long before he turned around towards the school and met up with Victoria.

Was he going to come up to me?