I'd Break Without You

I'm Not In Control

"It's not bad, I know what you mean." Manny replied. "But why did you choose to show emotion here, instead of when you woke up without a clue of why you died?"

"Because I care about her. She didn't deserve any of this." Safiya replied.

"But you didn't deserve your death either." Manny rebutted.

"I know, but between me and her, I'm glad it was me. Her death would've made me break down if I'd still been alive."

"Ok. That's fair. We've got one more spot to go." Manny took her hand and they headed to wherever he had planned.
"So why are we here?" Safiya asked. They were in the doll maker's workshop. She had absolutely no idea why she was here. There wasn't like an important event that was in here.

"Pull the lever." Manny pointed at the lever that Safiya had to pull as a feat of 'pain'.

"Why?" Safiya asked.

"Just do it." Manny leaned against the sink.

"Ok I guess." Safiya picked up the lever. "Ow! It still has electricity going through it." The electricity had shot up her arm.

"You've done it before, do it again." Manny said. He was trying to push her. She picked up the lever and pushed it. As it went farther down, the electricity got more intense. When she finished, she was sweating a bit.

"What, exactly, was the point of this?" Safiya asked. Her arm was still tingling.

"You had no trouble facing the lever that gave you a ton of physical pain. But you're hesitant with Rosanna, and you're afraid of giving up control. Why can't you face your fear? It's not going to hurt you as much as that lever. It can only benefit you. Sure, you might break up, but you're still going to be friends." Manny ranted a bit, and Safiya had to admit, he had a point. She literally put herself in pain to pull a stupid lever, but was afraid to lose control? It didn't make sense.

"You're right. I hate to admit it but you're right." Safiya looked down at the lever. "I should be able to take a chance, face my fear and work through it."

"Then you have your answer. I'm pretty positive that she'll want to help you through your fear. She wouldn't make you do anything you are uncomfortable with." Manny went over and gave her a hug. "So now go talk to her."

"But what if I've already ruined it?" Safiya asked.

"You'll never know if you don't talk to her. She might not be too happy about you waking her up, but she'll understand. So go to her."

Rosanna heard a knock on the door. She couldn't sleep. She was just so... upset? No, worried is a better word for it. She didn't know what happened to her Safiya. She got up and opened the door. She saw Safiya standing there, slightly out of breath and her a bit frizzy.

"What happened to you?" Rosanna asked.

"Long story, and I'll tell you later, but I just need to talk to you." Safiya walked in and sat on the bed. Rosanna followed.

"Is it actually you?" Rosanna didn't want to here some version of Safiya.

"Yeah, I think so. I've come to learn a few things over this night that Manny helped me with." She turned to look at Rosanna. "I'm afraid of not being in control. And being with you, I'm not 100% in control. When I died, I didn't have a chance to fight back. I wasn't able to control my fate. But I know I need to get over that. I didn't have that fear before coming to Everlock. But this is where I am now, and I need to take chances. And I need to give others control." Safiya explained.

"And what drew you to this conclusion?" Rosanna asked.

"I electrocuted my self." Safiya stated.

"You what?" Rosanna shouted. Safiya shrugged

Remember that lever in the doll maker's shop that electrocuted me when I touched it?" Rosanna nodded. "I did that again. Hence the staticky hair. And if I'm able to face physical pain to get over that fear, I can deal with my control issues."

"So what does this mean for us?" Rosanna wasn't ready to hear her say they were over. They just started.

"I love you, Rosanna. I really do. And I want to be in a relationship with you. Because I need you in my life. Am I scared to give you control? Yes. But I trust you."

"I love you too. And I'm glad that you're back to being you." Rosanna smiled. Safiya pressed a soft kiss to her lips. "I'm really glad you're back. It's quite funny, actually, how I couldn't sleep without knowing you were ok. Will you stay?" Rosanna asked.

"Of course. I'm glad I'm back too. And tomorrow, JC's going to get a piece of my mind." Safiya and Rosanna threw back the covers and got comfy. They slowly drifted asleep. Holding hands.