I'd Break Without You

I'm Not In Control

"So, why exactly are we here?" Safiya and Manny were in the lounge at around midnight. "I don't get it." She sat down on the couch and put her head in her hands. She knew they were there because she died here, but that didn't give a clear reason.

"We're here because this is where you died." Manny explained. "What do you remember about your death?" Safiya stood up and walked over to where she was stabbed. The question seemed so stupid. She remembered everything about her death.

"It was a twist. I got a fish hook to the gut in the place that was supposed to be a safe place. I didn't know what happened or why I was dying. And it scared the hell out of me."

"Why?" Manny stood next to her.

"I didn't have any control over my fate. I didn't get the chance to fight. I didn't know what was going on." She kneeled down and ran her hand over the carpet. She could still remember the pain very vividly, and the shock of waking up to see a bunch of faces from her dead friends.

"So it was not having control that scared you?" Manny asked.

"Yeah. I guess it was." Safiya stood up and looked at their map. The map still had the mark from where Manny died.

"Why does being in control matter so much to you?" Manny asked. An idea crossed his mind, it could go quite poorly for him, but it could work really well.

"I don't know." Safiya replied. Manny walked over to her. He spun her around and pinned her to the wall with his hands on her wrist. Her breathing started to pick up. "Manny, what are you doing?" She tried to push her hands up. "I can't move."

"Why does this make you scared? You know I'm your friend. You know I would never do anything to hurt you. So why are you scared?"

"I can't do anything. I'm not in control."

"But why does not being in control scare you?"

"Because if something bad happens then I can't stop it! Ok? Is that what you wanted to hear? So let me go!" She yelled at him. He smiled and then let go.

"Good, you're finally fighting back."

"That's what this was about?" Safiya was shocked he had the guts to do that.

"Yup! Now we need to head over to the Witches Altar."

"Ok. But I swear to God if you do that again." Safiya threatened.

"I won't, I won't." He reassured her.

Manny and Safiya were standing in front of the altar. And he wasn't saying anything. So she waited. And still, nothing.

"So, why are we here? I get going to lounge a bit, but I don't get coming here." Safiya said. She ran her hand on the edge of the altar.

"What happened here the first time you came?" Manny asked.

"I came to get Rosanna from when she died." Safiya said.

"Be more specific. What did you do?" Manny went around to the other side of the altar.

"I healed her wounds." Safiya knew he wasn't there when she retrieved Rosanna, so he wouldn't be able to tell if he was hiding something.

"Colleen told me what happened. You cried. More accurately sobbed." Manny replied.

"It was the first time I let myself cry when I got here."

"Why'd you cry?" Manny asked.

"Because she died. It might sound bad but I didn't want to see her again."