we're not fated, are we?|tracob

Ghost

i didn't even realize i was daydreaming, it only helped me to realize, when i saw my phone light up from my lap.

sagey: hey where are you?

sagey: mum is looking for u

sagey: troye it's late

sagey: you better not be hooking up with some guy at a bar

~three new messages from sagey~

sagey: tok u know it's like 4 am right?

sagey: ok text me back i guess

sagey: love ya

~

i glance up at jacob after staring at my phone for a long while, looking through the messages. he just looks super confused and tired, he's pretty when he's tired.

"sorry, that was my sister. she and my mum were looking for me"

i say to him, hoping he didn't notice that when i was daydreaming my eyes were directed at him and that if he did notice, this would completely distract him from that.

"maybe you should go home then, ya? it's late and your fam is worried."

"i guess.." my mood droops very low, i don't want to go home it was actually really nice having someone to talk to.

"here if you ever wanna talk, this is my number"

he hands me a paper, with his name signed after the number, as though he thinks i'd forget it was his number. i could never, i wasn't going to forget this night.

"oh, thanks! .. yeah haha, maybe i'll talk to you sometime.. i guess?"

"sure thing! you have a nice night alright? i hope you feel better soon"

"thank you. you too. oh wait., you never said why you were out here?"

"don't worry about it. some chapters aren't meant to be told, maybe another time. goodnight."

what could that mean? i hope he's okay. i really wanted to stay there and talk more, but i knew i couldn't. so i kept walking back home, turning around multiple times to see if he was still sitting there, checking to see if he really was someone i met, or just a ghost. a ghost i made so i could not feel alone anymore, i guess i'll never know if he was real or not until i text him, i'll do that tomorrow.

but if i'm being honest, i don't think i'll see him ever again. we're not fated, it was just coincidence.