whoever reads this:
hi :) so i started school and literally couples are crawling the place like i can't turn anywhere without seeing freakin pda from every direction
but that makes me think who am i gonna go to hoco with? i mean sure going with friends would be great, but i just wanna know what it's like to have someone to yourself for a night of fun *not in that way😖*
whoever's liked me in the past are all trash, sorry to you, "polo" but like i wanna know what it feels to be in a real relationship
i've obviously never been in one and if everyone has someone, why can't i? it seems exciting and fun and connecting with someone the way you do w a s/o? that's so important and i feel like that's an unforgettable experience
i hope i find someone.. i mean like someone who likes me for me, and who isn't a complete asshat.. i hope that someone isn't so obsessed with the person having curves because i sure don't! :') there's >3000 people in my school. there has to be at least one person who's genuine ? i wonder if i found her/him already?! god i wish people would just come out and say it! i'm not saying there aren't people who are super sweet and goodlooking too, it's just the ones i found of course don't go to my school! being in a relationship seems so 신선해. i wanna be all cute with him/her !! seeing them everyday, lingering in their embrace, interlocking my fingers in theirs, staring into their eyes, standing on my toes to kiss them?! i think yes. i'd love to have a reason to do my best and look my best ! (ik i shd do that anyway but that's beside the point) sure i mean it won't last long, but even if it's for a little while, isn't that better than unhappiness? i'd love to smile when i see their face, or my face light up when they call my name, or just being with them would make me so happy, but the thing is though?
nobody likes me and if they do, they don't and won't say it, at least to me. if you're one of them, just come right out and say it please. it will save everyone time and effort. also, if you're aboutta ask me to hoco, (just general info bc nobody will) make it special:) i love memories and knowing you put in effort and time to just do that simple gesture! okay? okay.
(side note- to all the boys i've loved before has very much impacted my wanting a relationship)
