p.s.:really rare that I will do these type of writing, but it could be because of how the song struck me in a way that i have no clue how to phrase but made me imagine a situation for this. . .and im done with this weird p.s. now do enjoy :3
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talkin' in my sleep at night makin' myself crazy wrote it down and read it out hopin' it would save me
Each night, you knew you were talking to yourself as you drifted off to sleep but you couldn't help it. You knew that you had to write down everything you said to yourself, even with the thought it would make you go crazy as you read it to yourself out loud, hoping it would save you in some ways.
my love, he makes me feel like nobody else nobody else but my love, he doesn't love me so I tell myself, I tell myself one, don't pick up the phone you know he's only calling 'cause he's drunk and alone
Tony did make you feel loved like nobody else did but you knew he didn't mean any of it. Every time he calls you, you tell yourself not to answer because you knew he was drunk and alone, hoping to get something out of you for the night.
two, don't let him in you'll have to kick him out again
You knew if he came knocking at your door, you would let him in for being naïve and being forgetful about your new rules, knowing very well you would have to kick him out the next day.
three, don't be his friend you know you're gonna wake up in his bed in the morning and if you're under him you ain't getting over him
You know you can't be friends with him, even more knowing that you would wake up in his bed in the morning. And you knew if you saw yourself under him, you're not over him.
i keep pushin' forwards but he keeps pullin' me backwards
Every time you think you have the upper hand, he comes and pulls you back to square one. Leaving you in an endless loop that has no ending to it.
now I'm standing back from it i finally see the pattern
Your phone continues to ring on your bedside table as you sit on the edge of your bed. The ringing finally dies down as a sigh of relief leaves your lips.
Your phone lets out a sound, indicating you have a notification. Checking so, you see it's a voicemail from Tony.
Debating whether you should hear it or not. Guilt taking the best of you, you take hold of your phone and press it to your ear to hear the voicemail.
"Heeeeyy sexy lady. So I was wondering. . .you. . .me and a coupleof drinks tonight? Uh, what do you say? I may or may nothavehad a few drinks before I called you but pssst I can if want to. Anyways come over and who knows what could happen next." He slurred throughout the whole voicemail, which caused you to shake your head and swear under your breath.
"Damn it, Tony." You mumbled as you placed your phone down and ran your hands through your hair frustrated.
(so this is where i don't use the rest of the song because its repetitive and I don't really tend to likethat. but you can gladly listen with the rest of the song if you want.)
You put your phone back on the bedside table and laid down on your bed, ready for sleep to take hold of you.
As the slumber you've been waiting for finally creeps through, there's a knock at the door. A sigh leaves your lips as you lay in bed still, letting the knocking continue on. When the knocking seemed to die down, you got comfortable in bed once again. Until there was a voice outside your window.
"y/n, I know you're in there!" Tony says through the intercom of his Iron Man suit.
"Fucking Christ." You mumbled as you threw the covers off of your body and made your way towards your window. You opened up the blinds and saw Tony in his Iron Man suit hovering in mid-air.
At the site of you opening your window, his helmet opens up to reveal a drunk smiling Tony. "Hey, gorgeous." He slurred as he started to sway side-to-side in the air.
"Tony, what are you doing here?" You said as you crossed your arms over your chest and leaned against the window frame.
"I wanted to see my favorite girl."
A scoff leaves your lips as you rolled your eyes at his lie. "You need to stop lying, Tony." You said as looked at your bared feet.
"Why would I lie to you?" He questioned as he scrunched up his face in confusion.
"Because you like to lie to me about how you love me when you're still not over Pepper." You said as you pushed some of your hair behind your ear.
"Why would you say something like that when you know that I'm over her." He protests.
"Tony," You sighed out as you pinched the bridge of your nose, "you say that all the damn time and it gets really tiring. I'm in an endless loop with you, I --- I mentally and emotionally can't anymore." you said as you placed your hands at your sides.
"Come on babe, I love you. And only you." He said as he flew a little closer to your window.
"No Tony, you don't. I'm just your rebound and I'm not going to take this anymore." You said as tears started to build up.
"Let me in and make it up for you." Tony kept trying.
"Goodbye Tony." You said as you closed back your window and blinds, making your way back to bed with silent tears falling from your eyes as you fell into a deep slumber.
