My Brother's Nemesis

Day Seven

"Wake up."

"Come on. Michael's going to catch us if we don't leave."

Luke kept whispering in my ear trying to wake me. I eventually got enough energy to speak. Go away was all that came out. Luke groaned slightly. I was afraid he was getting angry , so I started to get up , but he had already lifted me from the bench. He then carried me bridal style to the cabin. A familiar feeling.

We were in the woods , so no one would be able to hear us. I knew now would be the best time to bring it up.Still half asleep , I asked the question that had been on my mind. The whole reason I came out here last night.

"Why did you leave?"

I asked. My words muffled by his chest. He asked me what I had said , so I lifted my head to look at him.

"Why did you leave?"

I asked a bit louder. Since I was already asking I might as well continue.

"We kissed and you just left. You never even said anything about it. You just left! I always thought of you as the kind of guy who would do that , but when I started talking to you-I thought you were actually a good person . I thought you would try not to hurt me. So , just tell me. What the hell is wrong with you?"

He stopped walking and helped me onto the ground. I had to tilt my head up to look at him because of the height difference. His eyes were filled with an emotion. It seemed to be sadness?

"I know you only kissed me because you were mad at Michael."

As soon as I heard those words my stomach dropped. I didn't want to admit it to myself , but he was right. Of course I didn't hate Luke , but I didn't really feel that way about him either. He could tell the guilt I felt by the way my expression of inquisitiveness and anger sunk down. I swallowed the lump in my throat and averted my gaze , that had fallen to the ground , back to his glistening eyes.

"It's fine. I'm fine. I totally understand how angry Michael can make someone. You'll do anything to make him just as angry. I've been doing it since 6th grade."

He etched on a small smile and we headed towards the cabin once again. The walk was uncomfortably silent. I wanted to speak to him , but I didn't know what to say. If he was upset with me , I wouldn't want to make it worse. If he wasn't mad , then apologizing would just seem ridiculous. He'd made his feelings so unclear , I really didn't know what to do. It'd be best to just leave it alone for now.

As I watched him walk like any human being , one foot in front of the other , he looked perfect to me. I began thinking. Even if he wasn't angry , I was still sorry. Pondering on the subject made my guilt stronger. Luke placed his hand on the door , but I grabbed his arm just in time. The feeling of regret making me nauseous. He quickly glancedbetween my small hand overlapping his and my eyes before I spoke.

"I'm sorry."

My voice surprised me. It sounded so weak and fragile in my mind , yet so sarcastic and rude aloud. Luke pulled the door open completely ignoring what I had said. Maybe it was because he didn't think I meant it. Maybe it was because he just didn't give a shit. We stepped in the door and there they were. Ashton and Calum lunged towards us frantically.

"Where the fuck were you guys?! Michael's going nuts! He thinks you and Luke snuck off to fuck in the woods."

Ashton whisper-shouted at the two of us.

"Why would he think that?"

I said defensively. I began babbling about how he was being an immature , overprotective control freak. Luke and Ashton chuckled and then Luke sighed. We all looked at him and saw how worried he seemed. Michael's shouts of anger then became louder and we knew why.