so maybe they were right. maybe i should've listened before jumping headfirst into this toxic relationship. no, not headfirst. heartfirst. i trusted him with my heart and he took that trust and played it, because he knew i would go along with whatever he said. no questions asked, which i regret. the first time he hit me, a month into our relationship, i didn't think much of it- he excused it as a drunken mistake and said "i love you," those three small words that ruined me. the next time, though, he didn't just hit me: he took his belt and left a mark on my back. again, he excused it as an accident while drunk. it got worse from there: sober "accidents", punishments of the worst kind. i was afraid of my hello-induced mistake.
