My name is Julian and I am 18 years old.Sure I wanted my name to be THOMAS OR ANYTHING LIKE IT that's why I have a dog named Thomas. This year I graduated high school with everyone pushing me to go to one of the best colleges in the country. Unfortunately, I don't share the same opinion because I really have no clue what I love to do in college or what to study I feel like i've lost my passion, and for that reason i'm taking a year off trying to do new things, discovering myself more and more. Deep down I know it's not about studying,getting a degree,get hired and then start a family and that's it. I want to things my way and in order to accomplish that I decided to make a ''do list for the summer'' genius isn't it. It's a list of the things I wanted to try before and I haven't had a chance.
1 _ FINDING NEW FRIENDS
As you see I am not a socialized person, I mean I don't recall that i've been in a real relationship since forever (and that's a really long time) so yeah find a friend, spend with him weekends watching movies and gossiping about celebrities especially this one I heard taylor swift is getting married so if anyone knows anything just tell me I know that this is not the ideal idea of a relationship like telling secrets or trusting I don't want to say that again I am kind of a person who doesn't share...
2 _ ACTING
Ok to be honest I think that my dream is acting. Finding anything, commercial,short an indie I mean anything I just need to be on T.V seriously I need to be successful, I need to feel like i've done something meaningful in my life because sometimes I feel empty with no achievements but ok still, I'm not a loser I am far beyond to be that. Ok i'm desperate but not that desperate.
I found before some castings but they always say that I lack the talent so what's more better than proving them wrong.
3 _ WRITING A BOOK
that's long, a short story would be enough. Maybe part of my dream is to be a writer and move to ''GALALOUS'' but to be sure of that I must write my own and first draft and off-corse publish it on wattpad or something and see other people reaction to it which I am sure they are going to criticise like a lot, all they good at is criticism but that's a part of the job so we must.. ignore it. Seriously, if anyone is going to criticise me i'm not going to listen, but I do praising, if you want to consider it.
4_ I really have no idea
But it is going to be big, I mean maybe i've got nothing in mind but something useful may come out of it.
So now I close my diary and go downstairs to join my family for dinner which I really don't want to do it by the way.
Don't get me wrong but I know what my dad is going to talk about future and whatever but it's kind of an obligation s I have to do it.
I help by sitting the table and then we all sit to eat, it's Pasta my favourite and everyone's favourite accually.
- So son have you thought about your next step ? My dad asks
What ? I won't say I told you but I did.
-what step dad ? I grin
- I am not going to repeat myself son...do you think I am joking ?
He answers with an angry tone
- Dad I thought we talked about it before and I made myself clear by telling you that I really want to take my time thinking to make the right choice....I want to discover myself more dad.!!! !! I reply confidently
- kid when I was at your age I wanted to study art but my father held my hand and told me :«Art doesn't pay the mortgage young man.». And guess what !! He was right. And look at me now a successful doctor if I did study art god only know where would I be right now maybe living in the sewer and gambling in Las Vegas.
So son you can succeed in medicine it is great field and with a huge income
I'm not going to tell him that I wanted to do acting or I swear he would kill me
-Ok, dad I really want you to respect my decision..rushing everything won't work for me
- You know what!! I agree on giving the freedom to do what you want but just until the summer ends. By the end of it you will decide which university you enter.
-deal. What !! By the end of the summer?? I've got no time.
