it's been two years since my precious angel has been brought into this world and it hasn't been easy
at all.
when i told my mom i was pregnant, she completely shut me out of her life for a long time. i guess it was hard news to hear.
i was 17 afterall.
and for zach, well he still wants to be in Avery's life and im pretty sure he's convinced himself that this is his child too. he's wanted us to do blood test and other things to see who's child it is but that just makes me feel like more of a whore than i already am.
i mean, i still love zach so so much but his career's taking off and him having a girlfriend who has a child is bad for his image. im doing him a huge favor.
hayes,
hayes has been such an amazing dad. i thought he was going to be immature and give up half way through but man was i wrong. he's everything.
somedays i wonder "why" or "how" did i get myself into this situation.
but then i remember
it was a dare.
