My story

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So this is the begging, middle, and end of my depressing, messed up life......
(Everything from being in 8th grade the first time to now )
So everyday in the first year I was in 8th I would get talked about, made fun of and told to kill myself. (We will use fake names for the people I am gonna be talking about.) So Henry and Kaden would like talk about me and make fun of me literally all of the time. When I fired back I was the bad person, most of the people in my grade were like ignore them, or they're just joking with you calm your tits. But it's not easy to ignore them when it's every day and your being called "a mother fuckin cum guzzling slut" and when you have every class with them. I don't forgive people as easily anymore used to I would be like it's fine , don't worry about it but I learned you can't forgive people for the same thing over and over because they see they can do it and u won't get mad. So Henry and Kaden walked all over me. It was more Henry saying shit but Kaden claimed to be my friend so why didn't he take up for me instead of sitting there listening and laughing about it, defending Henry. One day Henry took one of my books I wrote stuff in (which I agree I was crazy) about one of the girls I liked and took pictures of it and sent it to everyone of his jackass friends. The next day at school all of them were making fun of me and saying I was crazy...even the girl I liked was in on it and it hurt because I really liked her and there she was doing the same thing the people who where bullying me where doing. It really made me wanna kill my self I couldn't deal with It and my best friend at the time would get made fun of for trying to kill herself what kind of fucking world is this it's so fucking stupid. I was thinking about killing my self but still not sure if I wanted to. I know I was a little crazy in the book but it wasn't for Henry to take. The thing about it tho is that Kayla(the girl I liked ) and Kaden lied to me and said he didn't have it and me literally having a panic attack about to cry because someone took it. They told me he didn't have it I can't believe that I even went over to them after what they put me through. I saw Henry walk by my bus with it in his hands that's when I finally lost it. I knew exactly what he was gonna do and I started crying my eyes out. The day after I was talking to two girls about what he did and they were like don't worry about Henry and ignore him. I said " Its kinda hard to ignore someone when he is ruining my life." Maybe a week later I was in my history class and we have assigned seats. (The people that sit at my table was Kaden, Kayla, and me.) I was talking about how I hate my dad and saying shit about how he treats me and Kayla looked at me and said " Your dad doesn't treat you that bad and you act like your life is so messed up but I bet you haven't ever cut have you because I have so I don't wanna hear about your 'bad life' ". Little did she know I was wearing long sleeves because I had cuts along my wrist. I thought about yanking my sleeve up and being like this is what jackasses here at school and my family at home caused me to wanna do. I thought it would make it worse so I didn't and I thought I just might make her feel bad and I don't want to so I didn't. It was a stupid reason not to but I wanted to be the bigger person and actually not try and make her feel bad. After two weeks I was in my science class and Kayla,Kaden, and a former friend sat at the big table in the back of the room. We were watching a video and I wrote something on a piece of paper to tell the former friend something and Kayla asked what it was about and I said "You can't know".... so like 2 minutes after she was like " and you can't know about this " she wrote something down on a piece of paper and slid it to Kaden. After he read it he nodded to my wrist because I had my sleeves rolled up and she had seen my cuts. I didn't mean to let her see them (later I become know as an attention whore but she didn't start that rumor.) she looked at me and said " I do it to but I don't do it where people can see it because I don't want attention." I literally wanted to cry because she basically just said that I had cut for attention.
TO BE CONTINUED...