Only Time Will Tell

Journey to the Past

Great just great, thought Harry as he skimmed through the muggle newspaper and tried not to scream. He handed it back to a startled elderly muggle man, thanked him and went on his way in the direction he thought that in this day and age led to Diagon Alley.

1932, fricken WHY? "DAMMIT WHY DOES FATE HATE ME SO MUCH !?"

Harry screamed to no-one in particular as he strutted through a shrouded alley. The last thing he remembered was that he was in some cave investigating a magical disturbance when he came across a magical rune or artifact and that it looked old...extremely old. He was investigating alone since he told his fellow co-workers that he could handle it himself. He really just wanted some alone time.

He had been thinking a lot lately to himself about what things would have been like if Voldemort had never even existed. Harry would most certainly had a fruitful uneventful happy life...maybe. What if Voldemort had been prevented from becoming insane.

After Voldemort's death Harry was hailed a hero and afterward he went on to become one of the strongest Auroras in History. He was also a dueling champion having mastered advanced levels of magic as he had a lot of time on his hands after the war. When he actually studied and practiced he was actually a very exceptional individual. He had immersed himself in books which he found were very interesting and useful and had eventually become a Hermione. Hermione went on to becoming minister and Ron also became an Aurora later.

During the years after Voldemort's death Harry had matured physically and mentally. He realized that although Voldemort was seen as the incarnation of evil himself he was but a man, an insane one who went about achieving his goals in the wrong way. He did spilt his soul seven times after all and was conceived under the influence of a love potion which didn't help. Harry did believe that if Merope hadn't died the day Tom was born and instead had been raised by her... he would have indeed turned out very differently and less insane. One is not born a monster after all.

He had had plenty of time to contemplate his entire life after the war, he even went on to practicing the dark arts and had eventually fully mastered them by the time he turned thirty. Ron had seen him then and had become concerned and a bit worried but Harry explained that magic was magic and that dark magic could be used for good thing as well as light could be used for bad or used with ill intent. He was reminded of Snape then. Harry only wished that he could have done more...if only he had known...the many truths that were kept from him or had been advanced in his training as he was now...he could have saved so many more lives. If only Dumbledore...No, Harry didn't hate the man but he just thought that he definitely could have gone about things differently. If he hadn't treated Tom like a monster from the start. If he had looked out for him instead of looking down on him...

Harry realized that he could have certainly turned out like Voldemort especially since Dumbledore hadn't realized what he had done by leaving him with the Dursleys for ten years never once checking up on him. He was only a child and he could have been Voldemort the Second after everything they put him through. In fact why didn't he turn out like that? He sighed tiredly.

Harry had never married because he had never truly found the right someone who would accept him for him and not a savior. Although Ginny and him were close they remained good friends. Harry was most certainly not a virgin though. He had gotten laid the night of his twentieth birthday with a girl who he had been dating for about a year. It was incredible but Harry still felt a gap somewhere inside him. He was not truly satisfied. During the next month they broke up because she had found someone else and said that Harry was never truly there when he was with her. She had said that he was a good person and that she wasn't the right one for him. Harry thanked her especially since she was being honest with him and he knew that everything she said was the truth.