Daniel Howell was normal 17 years old boy, or so it looked from the outside. He looked soft. Pastel boy. But nothing was as it looked. He was younger child in his family. The one who ruined everything and everyone's lives. His own parents hated him. And so from all the pressure have left it's marks on his body, soul and mind. Daniel got sick in early years of his life. He was bipolar with manic and depressive episodes, but most of time he suffer from mixed affective episodes.
Daniel have just finished high school and his parents was pushing him to get into university, telling him to finally do something meaningful.
-Get a degree, earn money, pay us back for all shits you have caused us and stop being such a burden! - They screamed in his face over and over, pushing and pushing.
Daniel couldn't take it, he have curl up in a ball and cried grabbing his own hair, pulling too strong causing sharp pain go through all his body.
-Shut up, you rat! - His brother screamed pushing Daniel down on his back before walking away to his own room.
Daniel didn't even have his own room because they never ever planned to have a second child. They didn't want him. So Daniel was sleeping in one small storage room that was still being used as storage room leaving him just enough space to lay down on crappy mattress.
Daniel was shivering and gasping for breath, his mind screaming at him for being such a fool and useless shit.
He didn't even notice when he got up and run out in the dark.
He didn't feel rain pouring down his body and sharp wind trying to tear off his plain black t - shirt from his skinny body.
He just run without seeing or hearing anything else than voices screaming in his mind.
Crush your skull against road
Drwon yourself
Cut your veins open and bleed to death
Run under a car or even better, under a buss
Jump of a building
Kill yourself
Kill yourself
KILL YOURSELF
His mind was screaming louder and louder with each step he took.
Daniel couldn't breath anymore, his lungs was on fire and muscles giving up.
He fell down in the middle of the road gasping for breath, pushing his hands over his ears trying to cut off all the voices screaming at him.
With every breath he tried to suck in, he cough on water getting into his lungs. He felt so weak, so he just let it all crush his bones and closed his eyes.
Phil just got home from his tattoo shop. It was bad storm outside. He got out of his car ready to run inside when he spot something laying on the middle of the road.
- For fucks sake. - He murmured thinking that someone have thrown some trash out or something so when he saw that it's a human body laying there, he was shocked.
- Hey! - He crunch down to see better.
A boy opened his eyes and looked up meeting Phil's blue eyes.
Phil couldn't breath, soft, big brown eyes was looking straight at him making his heart warm.
With that he knew that he need to help this boy in all costs.
Daniel saw blue eyes piercing through the dark like a lighting in the middle of the night.
They were calming him down, making voices quiet down and his breathing to come back.
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Beautifully Broken
FanfictionPastel!Dan have had a rough life that made it's prints on his soul, body and personality. But all his life is about to change when he meet Bad boy/Punk!Phil who believe that Dan can be cured, just with a bit of unconditional love.
