Wow...It Hurts

Chapter 1

It is said when a girl and guy sharing good understanding its not friendship…paAsa effect man ito sila lang dalawa ang nagkakaintindihan..it's those four words. There are many things between boy and girl beyond those four words called LOVE…Love??? I don't know if i still believe in that....well! I always believe in one thing, that there is a space in girl friend and girlfriend…in fact you always like to be in touch with a person who is giving you a space in general life and that space makes any relationship breath lasts long…..but what if we don’t realize this space…... na hindi na natin alam ano nga ba ang pinagkaiba?? yung tipong lagi na lang may comparison... yung tipong sasabihin na he's smarter than you.... he's better than you... and I love him than you....

So many questions are travelling around my 32gb of heavy weight random access memory, people called it mind…… at full memory na ako no space na talaga...and I don’t have mind no brain totally… nung nasaktan ako imbes na puso lang ang nakuha at tinapon pati brain ko dinala pa....walang awa talaga siya

I never believe in end because there is no such thing as end……so how come will I think of losing the things I love . It’s a dark room with loneliness and sweet smile on my face….

My phone is in silence... haha I almost broke it....

“Sorry but it’s better to say bye…it’s good for you and me too, so please grant my request, we can never be friends ”…she slapped in words.

And the story ends…… Wow it Hurts!!! it almost kills me yung tipong heart broken lang pero bakit ganun buong katawan ko di ko maikilos sa sobrang sakit..

I am blanked clueless…because it is something which I admired most…something for the first time in my life, I am what I am in front of a girl…because I respect her…that is my loop hole.... for the first time ako ang nagmahal ng sobra ako ang humahabol sa kanya at ako ang iniwan... Wow...it Hurts!...

Is it so easy to break a bond in one go although it takes so much time to make it….a bond which at times is even more stronger and strengthener than mighty bond na kapag na dikit sa dalawang daliri mo iiyak ka dahil di mo alam paano ito matatangal. It’s hard to swallow but I have to because it’s her wish... Acceptance....mahal mo siya so let it go...kahit masakit kahit na ayaw mo pero gagawin mo kung dun siya liligaya... She had already made her mind and took the conclusion whereas me……

I was thinking…

Why I always had glue on my mouth….?

Why I always cared for others…..?

Bakit ni minsan di ko man lang inisip sarili ko.... Ano at sino ba ang magpapasaya sa akin?

Akaa ko siya na talaga... yun pala daig pa Dang bagyo na napadaan lang ngunit m ang lahat wala man lang itinira....

Oo tama naman ang lahat masarap magmahal....kahit na....masakit...

Yuan, first love last for 4yrs ganon' katindi siya magmahal... Hindi ko malaman kung tanga siya o sadyang nagmamahal lang talaga... he's smart at everything he wants...he gets...

(sorry kung sadyang bitter ako)...

Si Yuan tinalikuran ang lahat para sa isang babaeng di niya akalaing iiwan at papabayaan lang siya na mag isa... Itago na lang natin sa pangalan na Chiren, ang babaeng dumurog nag wasak ng buong pagkatao ni Yuan...

Yes Chiren is so charming everyone can please her... she has everything... except the love from her own family...kaya sunod sunuran na lang siya sa lahat ng ipagawa sa kanya... only girl sa family nila... she has two brothers the oldest is separated has a 3kids...the second one is Gay...as in POGay...gwapong bakla... Chinese family sila kaya ganun na lang ang turing nila kay Chiren non sense...tanga... walang utak...

Kaya hindi ko malaman bakit minahal ni Yuan si Chiren ...

Kung pwede lang sana batukan si Yuan matagal ko ng ginawa...

"Pane, I want to die"

yan ang message ni Yuan sa akin 6:30pm.... late KO na nabasa 10:30pm na dahil naiwanan ko phone ko sa bahay ng gumala ako... pagkabasa KO ng text syempre nagAlala ako what happen to Yuan?? I text and call him but he never answered.... OMG!!! what's happening to him...

Yuan almost killed himself... but...

Funny Epic failed na pagpapakamatay ang nangyari sa kanya... killing your own selves is a greatest sin... we never ask him what happened to him... naghintay na lang kami na kusa siya mag kwento...

Well which means once nakukwento na ng isang tao ang nangyari na di maganda...it is the start of moving on...

Personally I believed na you should Let Go first then Move On ...and Move Forward :) Yes I'm bitter naIinis ako sa mga taong matalino naman pero pagdating sa Love na tinatawag OMG!!! daig pa ang isang sangol na walang kamalay malay sa mundo... Kala mo kung sino matalino tapos iiyak iyak na parang magugunaw ang mundo...

Hay!! bakit ba kasi nagmamahal pa kung alam naman sa sarili na may possibility na masasaktan..

[Chiren and Yuan love story???

hintayin niyo na lang ang next book about them... dahil ang story na ito ay para Kay Yuan and Giorgina (Lexie) ....]