Why can't i be alone without feeling lonely I ask to myself as I look right to the eyes of my demon... myself, been happy doesn't mean happiness, being surrounded by loving people doesn't mean feeling loved, having everything in life sometimes makes u feel more empty... i'm a lonely and unhappy.... Human??... Can a someone be called human when it's lacking of empathy, when it's lacking of remorse...
Suffering it's a joy, both mine and others, am i punishing myself both hurting me and hurting everyone around me??
To be sincere i crave loneliness, i crave pain, i crave sadness, maybe because im the only one that knows the extension of my sins, maybe because im the only one that knows that the term human doesn't apply to me, maybe i hate myself because i can't be happy and i punish myself making me unhappy...
Maybe i just know that i can't be happy, maybe i know that i'll always be lonely, depressed and broken...
Maybe im just the case of someone who once existed, an empty case that moves along with the rotten music of society, a damaged carcase that feel alive time to time because sometimes something remembers it the time when it wasn't empty...
