No One Cares For You.
Everyone That Enters Your Life leaves.
Just End It.
Alone.Numb.And Dumb
Looking through My half closed eye lids the world is a blur, trying to piece together the puzzle as to why I'm doing this. My hands drags across the cold marble as my feet follow as I crawl to my unknown destination. Crimson puddles follows behind me which followed with painful grunts that slips from My dry lips. My arms give out landing me face first onto the cold marble leaving my curly mane to fall over my face. My mind slid in and out of conscious making me question my existence and if I'm here or not
Zenalisa was or is the name, my mama said it meant pretty right before she dropped me in a garbage dumpster. "A crackhead found me next to a spoiled sandwich" or so that's what Rock the neighborhood crackhead told me. I'm what the social workers call a "motherless child" and still to this day the neighborhood reminds me of that. Alone is what I am and is apart of me people say that I'm scarred but i just say I'm completely numb. Now I'm here just gurgling up my last breaths as i look back on my nightmares of reality.
My eyes close waiting for the final moment that was until I felt arms drag me forward meeting cold droplets to fall upon my face. I gasped trying fight against this anonymous person only to be pulled back under the water. "what the fuck were you trying to do Zen" this voice screamed only for me to recognize it as Jahseh. I laughed as I was drunken on adrenaline and the Xanax, I really started to go crazy or maybe this was the push I needed. My laughs slowed down as I slipped out of consciousness, I heard Jahseh's Pleads for me to stay awoke.
"Zen I can't lose you"
Where Did It All Go Wrong
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Hello Everyone ,
i wanted to make my book on X but what i found out was that there were no plus size x stories so i made.
Edit: I started this book in march and to find that he died shocked me completely i cried non stop but i want to release something in his memory . His music helped me through depression and suicide watch just to be apart of his fan base aka family from 2015 to now and to see him grow was so refreshing. he will always have a place in my heart , rest easy baby
Thank you love samya
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ANXIETY
ChickLitanx·i·e·ty /aNGˈzīədē/ noun a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome. "Where can you go , when you're all alone" ...
