I mean i'm finally happy , i have that one person who i love , i have people who care about me , i have , meaning . I guess . I try not to breakdown as much , when i'm with him it's all of a sudden ok , i don't know why i trust him so much , i have no clue why i let him in , maybe not fully but i've never let anyone else in . It's because when i'm with him i feel comfort and warmth like i'm in the hands of an angel that can pull me out of the deep , never ending darkness that i am in. Loneliness confuses me , it makes me feel better not having to tell anyone my problems yet when but i also feel safer from myself when i'm with someone . To keep me away from a all the bad thoughts that come to my head . Now that i mentioned it they're coming , i just don't want to think of all the bad things , they just make me feel sad , alone , and useless again . i guess happiness doesn't last long .
