If Only It Could Be Blank.

Family

Family is soposed to be there for you.
The only thing you could reach out for no matter what..

But what happens when you can hear them talking behind your back, about how let down they are from you. Especially when you are trying your best to make them happy. Putting your wants second.

What happens when you get to answer rhetoric questions, that a parent should not make..?
"Are you fooling with me? "
" Are you even trying! "
" Answer me! "
Being the most popular and calm ones.

Sure a stright family is better than a broken one.
But what happens when all you remember is lonely lunch with yourself and only.?
When you want to trust them but they always leave you broken.
And when you bring serious conversations up, in theoretical level, cause you are too scared.. All they say is that if that was true, you would be kicked out .

And sure you love them and you try.
And so do they. And the fighting and the screaming is for "your own good"
And the argues between them is your causing. They denied it, but you know it.

But what happens, is that you are left alone in a room. Isolated from people and your thoughts, your only companion the burning lump in your throat.

Yeah at least it is not broken.
But it is cracked.
And you shattered.