Once Upon a Dream [HIATUS]

Dream 21: Different sides

then one reporter raised his hand and asked me if I already have someone special in life.

I was schocked and at the same time nervous because of the question but I don't have to answer it because may contract kami na bawal muna ang makipagrelasyon for our 1st 2 years. And the contract is almost over pero I really don't want issues and to receive the spotlight. 

"Méiyǒu--" (no--)

"Lu-ge!! Wǒ ài nǐ! Wǒ xi-lei! Nǐ hái jìdé wǒ ma?!!! SARANGHAMNIDA LU-GEEEE!"

(luhan! I love you! I'm xi-lei! You remember me?!!! I LOVE YOU [in korean] LUHAAAAAN!)

napatingin naman kaming lahat sa sumigaw. Wait.. Xi-lei? she's my schoolmate back in high school. hinaharangan naman siya ng mga bodyguard thinking that she's just one of those sasaeng fans (crazy, obsessed).

I stood up and telled the guard I know her. Everybody gasped when I embraced Xi-lei. 

I did this because..

I heard her back there clearly. She said she love me, in 2 languages. Dati nung high school kami hindi nya ko masyadong pinapansin pero ngayon.. uhgmf.

Well, I'm not mad. I'm not supposed to be mad even. But I hugged her not because I 'still like her. But it's because I want to make her realize that infatuation is the only thing she felt for me. Yung parang sila kasi sinasabing mahal din ako kaya ganun nadin sya saken.

"Dàodǐ shuí shì tā?!!" - heard the audience said. wait--

Ow. I forgot that we're infront of the audience.

Uh-oh. Manager Qǐng bùyào shā wǒ >___< (please don't kill me)

after nung interview ay sinermonan ako ng mga staff lalo na sila Manager. Yung mga K members naman tinanong ako ng tinanong tungkol dun sa nangyari kanina. Syempre as their hyung, sinabi ko sa kanila yung totoo. Alam naman na kasi nung mga M members ang tungkol sa high school life ko kaya hindi na sila medyo nashock.

"That's enough for now kids. Take some rest, you all did a good job today though. hajiman.. Luhan. dasineunhaji anhneunda, arasso?"

i nodded. embarassed. Omo, I'm not gonna do that again.

(hajiman.. Luhan. dasineunhaji anhneunda, arasso= but.. Luhan. don't do that again, alright?)

nung nasa dorm na kami. Pumasok na'ko sa kwarto, at humiga agad sa kama dahil sa pagod.

kinuha ko naman yung phone ko at nakitang marami itong messages at may millions of notifications sa weibo, sina, mga pages, at sa instagram.

pero ang binasa ko lang na mga messages ay yung sa phone network talaga. Yung iba galing sa mga relatives, friends at sa mga noona's at hyung's ko sa company (older sister's at older brother's) pero may iisa doong number na iba ang 1st 3 digits dahil international message ito.

From: Alyssa (0639+++++++++)

Xi-Lei? :)

oh no..

Ren's POV

Hindi ko na pinansin yung sinabi ni Andi at nagtuloy tuloy sa kwarto ko dito sa hotel. I sighed upon seeing my inbox flooded with messages asking what happened a while ago.

Bwisit. naasar nanaman ako, bakit pa kasi pumunta punta si Andi? sinabihan ko naman syang wag nang pumunta dito nung nagtext sya saken na gusto nya kong bisitahin. And about the marriage she was talking about? I'm not agreeing. I would not and will not!

If I'm going to get myself married and kiss someone infront of the altar, it would be someone I love and someone who I'll be going to love and take care on forever.. Marriage is no joke. Many people might take it without seriousness but I'm not like those people. 

Naalala ko nanaman tuloy bigla yung reaction ni Aly kanina sa dining hall. She was shocked, confused.. and hurt?

does that mean I have a chance? does that mean may nabubuo narin ang paghihirap ko? 

but why don't I feel happy? of course I'm not happy because..because-- nevermind.

matagal ko nang na amin sa sarili ko na mahal ko sya pero It's been years and she never did feel the same. 

pinunasan ko naman yung luhang tumutulo sa mga mata ko. Sht naman. bakit ba kasi ang sakit aminin sa sarili mo na minahal mo nang sobra sobra ang isang tao pero hindi ka nya magawang mahalin din?

Alam kong sa tingin nya at ninyong lahat di ako masyadong seryoso nung inamin ko sakanyang mahal ko sya noon, dahil hindi manlang ako nalungkot at nagawa ko pang makipag asaran nila Vince pagkatapos pero nasaktan ako nun.. nasaktan ako masyado. Kaya nga ako laging napupunta sa may garden ng swimming pool kasi dun ko hinahayaan ang sarili kong magmukhang mahina. Pero di ko inakalang doon ko din sisimulang saktan at pahirapan ang sarili ko sa pamamagitan ng pakikipagkaibigan sakanya.

"Shit haha, di ko inakalang ganito na pala ako kabading" tawa ko sabay pahid ulit sa mga luha ko.