KaiChristopher's Random Book of Randomness

KaiChristophersMom

Hey Mom, 

I know it's really late, but I wanted to write you a little letter before Mother's Day ended.  I know I don't need Mother's Day as an excuse to write you a letter, but hey, it gives me a reason to post my letter on Wattpad, and show all 149 people who follow me know how much I love you, and that I have the best damn Mom in the entire world.  

Most people on this website won't know who some of the people I'm about to talk about, but you will, and a few other people will, and that's what matters.  

I wanted to write you this letter to say thank you.  I wouldn't be where I am today without you.  (In a lot of ways, actually.  I literally would not, nor would I ever exist on this planet if you weren't here.)  You've supported me, carried me, and picked me up when I fell.  You've never turned me away when I've asked you if you wanted to hear something I'd written, or seen something I'd drawn, even back when I really wasn't very good at either of those things.  You've always laughed at my horrible jokes, and listened to me sing.  You taught me to be determined, strong, loyal, and everything I aspire to be, I've learned from you.  You've encouraged me to chase my dreams, and to face down my nightmares.  You've taught me how to be strong in the face of adversity, and you've held me and helped me to put myself back together when I wasn't quite strong enough.  

I don't know how you do everything that you do, from everything we talk about with work, to keeping the house in order (sorry I'm not much of a help..), to dealing with my brother and I everyday, to every single thing that you do that makes you incredible.  And Mom, I think that's everything about you.  I love you so much.

When I was a kid, there was one day we were driving home, do you remember?  You told me that one day, I'd hate you.  I'd hate that you tried to tell me what to do, that you'd try to get involved in everything I do.  "No way, Mommy," I said, my little seven-year-old heart not thinking it was possible to hate anything. "I could never hate you!"  I knew what hate was, of course, but I'd never felt it.  I never thought I could hate anyone.  I was wrong.  There are two people in this world that I hate, more than anything else I've ever hated.  But not you, Mommy.  I could never hate you.

We've been through a lot together.  You've seen me at my worst, and you've seen me at my best.  You've seen me when I felt like the world couldn't get any better, and when I felt like the world couldn't get any worse.  You've always been there, to be a rock, a pillow, an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on.  Someone to laugh with, someone to cry with.  I can't imagine my life without you.

You told me once that I was the greatest gift you had ever been given.  But I don't think that's entirely true.  Y'see, anyone can raise a kid to be good, you just have to know how.  But not every kid gets a mom that will do all the things that you've done for me.  You've bandaged my cuts, dried my tears, held me when the thunder outside was too much for me to handle (literally and metaphorically), and you've never, ever stopped being there for me.  You know when I need space, and you know when I need you.  You've never given up on me, and that's more than can be said for a lot of people in this world.  You're amazing.

Thank you, Mom, for everything.  You told me once that the world was my oyster.  You probably aren't wrong, but...  This is a crazy world that we live in, for sure, but I know that it's a world that's just waiting for us.  Both of us, because I'm not going anywhere without taking you with me.  In that little, gold, heart-shaped locket that you gave me when I went to Snoopy school, and I was so scared that you were never coming back.  I still have it, you know.  It's hanging on my wall, above my desk.

I love you, Mom, and there's so much more I wish I could say in this letter, but if I go on too much more, I'll probably start bawling.  I love you, so, so much, and I'm so lucky to be able to call myself your daughter.  Your username on this website is KaiChristophersMom, but you're more than that.  You aren't just KaiChristopher's mom; you're Kaitlyn's mom, too.  And I couldn't be any luckier.

I love you, Mommy.

--Kaitlyn