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my first and last

It was dark, cold and seulgi felt empty. Not sad, not angry, just plain empty. It felt like she lost everything.

Looking back at the other side of the bed, she sighed.

Empty, just like her.

The bed used to be warm, it used the be the only place where she feels safe. But now, it was so cold.

She stood up and looked at the minimalistic-styled wall clock. It was 7 p.m. already.

Take note, she woke up at 10 a.m.

Her stomach has been growling since that time but she chose to ignore it. But, she can't take it anymore so she decided to go out and prepare something for dinner.

Going to the kitchen was a huge mistake.

She looked at the empty space.

Again, empty just like her.

She opened the cabinet to look for something to eat, again empty.

fuck. she mentally cursed herself.

If the other half of her was here, the cabinet wouldn't be empty.

She remembered going to the grocery store with her Girl, hand in hand, laughing and giggling.

Reminiscing the past was something she should not do, specially at this time.

i miss you so much, irene. so fucking much.

She decided to go with grilled cheese since the only thing that was left in their- her kitchen was bread and cheese and some alcohol.

i should fill my stomach before drinking.

that's what she told me.

After cooking, she sat down near the kitchen island. Looking at the place where she and Irene used to have fun.

The place where she received kisses every morning.

The place where she received a warm smile every time she gets home from work.

The place where she-

Her thoughts were interrupted by a loud knock on her apartment's door.

who would visit me at this time?

She opened the door, but to her surprise no one was there.

Again, empty.

Her mind was playing with her again, for the 10th time this day.

Maybe she was just stressed.

It's been 9 months since Irene left her.

It's been 9 months since she lost everything.

It's been 9 months since she lost the girl who promised that will have her last name, the girl who planned her future with the bear-like woman, the girl who is now marrying a rich guy in 2 weeks.

Irene turned out to be cheating on her. She discovered it on their 5th anniversary. Horrible, isn't it?

After knowing everything, Irene tried to explain herself. But, actions speak louder than words right? Yeah, right. That's what seulgi thinks.

She never let Irene explain her side.

After 7 months of their break up, she received a letter, No- an invitation. To what?

Suho & Irene

Join us as We make our vows togethe-

Seulgi doesn't want to continue. Her tears fell on the card, like it has no plan to stop.

She cried and cried and cried, until her eyes felt like it doesnt have any tears to let go anymore.

She felt empty.

Like taking her own life. But no. Irene told her that taking your own life won't make anything better.

But, Irene... she's gone now.

Back to Reality,

Seulgi was still there infront of the door, spacing out. She decided to go back to the kitchen and just drink the night away.

It had always been like this since Day 1.

Waking up just to feel empty.

Waking up just to feel nothing.

Waking up just to feel numb.

It had always been like this.

Every since Irene left her, It felt like she lost everything. The girl she loved and treasured for 5 years was now gone. She promised that she will never date anyone else, except this girl. Making Irene her first and last.