Something That Science Can't Explain

Chapter 2: Feelings To Be Handled

Gusto ko pang marinig boses niya. I still wanted to make contacts with her.

No. Not just that. I also wanted to make skin contact with her. When we had bumped into each other, I got a feel of her skin.

It was smooth, silky, and... soft. I wanted to touch her more, hug her and never let go while combing her long black hair with my hand.

No shit! Why am I thinking that way?! It's not like I like her or something.

B-baka!

Focus, Zac. Focus. Nagdi-discuss ung teacher at putangina ka. Kung ano-ano na naman iniispi mong Zachary ka.

Wake up! I'm supposed to listen, not to dwell my thoughts on someone else. That's bad.

Really bad.

Obsessively possessive.

That should not be in my personality list.

Sometimes, I think if I have MPD or what.

-Dren's P.O.V.-

Should I take a peek of Zac's face?

No, Dren. You shouldn't.

I just wanted a glance of his face.

You can't.

Can I look back for at least a second so I can see him?

NO!

Once again, I began to talk to myself mentally.

Di naman ako pwedeng tumingin sa likod ng basta-basta lang. Nasa pinaka front row ako and it would be embarrassing because there are a lot of people in the back.

I'm a shy-type. I don't want 40 pairs of eyes looking at me. I don't want them thinking "what is she looking at?"

Look back. Take a peek at least a second or half.

Fine! I will.

But only for a half second.

I quickly turned my head a bit to the left, and let my eyeballs roll for a clearer vision.

The moment I can see him a bit clearly, I caught him starring at me WITH his right elbow resting on the table of his armchair AND his head resting on his palm.

He instantly looked away upon getting caught and I did the same as well.

My cheeks turned blood red the moment I caught him starring at me.

Has he been looking at me all this time?

Gosh. Kinakabahan ako. Why was he looking at me? What was I thinking?! Bakit ba ako tumingin sa kanya?

As an introvert, being anxious is normal to me since I'm not used to interacting with other people.

But in this situation, what I'm feeling right now is more than anxiety. My heart beats faster than my brain, my fingers fidget crazily, and my cheeks heats up like hell!

I've never felt this around anyone before. What kind of aura does he possess?

What... kind... of emotion... am I feeling right now?

-Zac's P.O.V.-

I instantly looked away nung nagtinginan kami. I wanted it to last longer, but she might think I'm a freak.

Her eyes are too beautiful to be ignored. I want to look at it more but I think I freaked her out dahil nahuli niya akong nakatitig sa kanya.

Shit. What am I thinking?! It's not my fault. It's hers dahil siya ung tumalikod. She wouldn't've caught me pag hindi siya tumalikod.

Why was I even making this a big deal?! Di ako makafocus sa sinasabi ni teacher.

Dammit. What's wrong with me?

I've never felt this level of anxiety before. Everything was calm until she looked at me in the eyes.

So, you see, that's where the trouble all began.

That stare.

That damned stare.

Those beautiful eyes, that sent me falling into the abyss of confusion and nervousness, are too damn cute.

I want to look at it more. I want to fall deeper into that abyss.

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Tapos na magdiscuss ung teacher. Finally, lunch na namin.

Everyone left the room so they can head to the canteen except for me. Nagpaiwan muna ako dahil hindi ko mahanap ung wallet ko. I'm sure it's here in my bag somewhere.

It was lonely, dim, quiet, and cold. I need to hurry, though. Baka kung kelan ko mahanap ung wallet ko, tapos na sila kumain.

I checked every parts of my bag.

Shit. Where is it?

I opened the last zipper in my bag. I pulled it desperately dahil pagod na pagod na ako sa kakahanap.

Despite the low temperature of the room, pinapawisan ako because of tiredness and nervousness. Is it lost?

I have like ₱3,000.00 in it. That's my allowance for the whole week.

Even if I can just easily replace it, may halaga pa rin yun.

Like I said, I'm not too spoiled. I may have a lot of money but I'm still aware of its value.

Unfortunately, my wallet's not in that pocket.

I gave up and headed to the room's door so I can eat in the canteen (Mambuburaot na lang ako).

I locked the door and walked through the corridors looking defeated.

I turned my direction to the staircase. But before I can even go down, I saw Dren climbing up the stairs.

Once again, our eyes met.

The atmosphere around me felt so warm. No. It felt so hot. My skin was flushed with sweat. 

I came closer to her, but slowly. I don't know what to spit from my mouth, but she already beat me with it.

"Wallet mo," she said, not looking at me and stretching her arms para iabot sa akin ung black leather wallet ko. "Nahulog mo nung nagkabungguan tayo." 

Nahihiya kong kinuha ung wallet ko. "Thanks." Sinagot ko sa kanya.

She lifted an eyebrow and smiled. I also smiled but like a pathetic idiot not knowing what to do next. She then turned around para bumalik sa canteen.

Me? I sheepishly stood there for minutes, trying to comprehend what the heck just happened. Although, at the back of my head, the situation is clear to me. Turned out, I was uncertain about it.

I can't seem to know. This feeling? What is it? I can normally interact with people. But why not with her?

Lagi akong nahihiya pag kausap siya. In fact, tumingin lang siya, feeling ko gusto ko magtago dahil sa hiya.

Pwede na ko magpawis ng dugo sa sobrang kaba.

Is this love? Eew.

Why am I feeling this? This can't be. We just met.

It's unexpectedly... gross.

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Shall we proceed?