This is taking me a lot longer than it needs to write this. Its hard to write this honestly. But I think if I finish this itll make me feel better as a person. But let's this show on the road. We start off freshman year of high school. I was wondering the halls then I saw one of my close friends. I went up to my friend and she was with this other girl. This other girl was hella cute. I thought the girl that I liked at the time was cute but this girl was just perfect. So when I first said Hi I shocking had a warm feeling hit me. I shrugged it off thinking it was nothing. But then i started to hang with them a lot more and i slowly thought to myself "do i actually like this girl ?" Suddenly i stopped hanging out with them. I instantly forgot about her. Freshman year ends summer comes and I hear nothing from her. Sophomore year s starts and she's shockingly in my first period class. I forgot her name and who she was. What's crazier. She stood right in front of me. I felt like I had seen her from somewhere but i just couldn't remember. So I asked her for her name. Yet she was shocked I didn't know who she was or what her name was. And she reminded me of who and where I met her. I instantly remembered who she was yet I kept forgetting what her name was. She would tell me everyday what her name was until I remembered it. And after a month of me forgetting one day, boom pow I remembered it. When I saw her going to her fifth period class and before she entered. I went up to her and I said "Hey ******". (The name will come up later). But she refused to accept the fact that I knew her name. (I remember her exact words) she said " that doesn't count you heard someonesay my name just now." So after that comment, I called her by her name everyday and everytime I had spoke with her. I can tell it made her smile and at times it made her laugh. And sometimes I got this warm feeling and I couldn't ever explain it. Even to this day I still can't explain it. But let me let you in on a secrete dont tell anyone ok. I never fully liked her on a scale of 1-10 it was a 7. Crazy right. I always had a small crush on her. Since freshman year as I could remember. I didn't say anything to anyone as I thought it was nothing to major. Well that was the case until sophomore year. I had told one of her friends (we'll call her Stacey). I took her friends Stacey. And she had supported that fact of me liking one of her best friends. Which excited me. She had barely known me yet she gave me the go ahead to ask her friend out. So what I decided is to get to know her a bit. And she was different than anyone else in a good way. She is the weirdest person I've met ever. She made me feel like a good person. She made me feel like someone important. There was a day in our school where we get out midday around lunch hour. And I was with friends at the libary. I went on social media. I saw on a story that she was there at the libary with friends. So I waited a little bit to walk over to them. Like ten minutes past, and I decided to walk over to them. As soon as I saw her. My heart skipped a beat honestly. I've never been able to admit that. She was just stunning. I didn't even realise that I was still walking. Next thing I knew was I was at the table they were sitting at I the libary. Her friend had told me before that the girl I liked thought I still had feelings footer another girl. So I said this to her friend this about the "girl I like". I said and I quote " Hey Stacey do you remember that girl I liked. Yea f**k her. She's just so negative about everything." And after that two of her friends left. And a little while later ( we'll call the girl I like in this moment "pinky". I'll explain later. But) pinkys best friend tells her that her bus is almost here. So it was just me and pinky in the libary ALONE. For the first time. It was possibly the best time, Ive ever had with anyone. Me and her spoke about basic things. Like or favorite things to do and other general facts about eachother. While playing the best game ever created. UNO. I kept beating her. She had no strategy. Yeet. So after me and her finished playing. She needed to go to practice. And then she went to get ready for practice. I saw another one of her kinda friends. She told me to tell pinky I liked her. What i didn't realise was that she left the libary. And I ran outside chasing after her. Luckily she didn't get too far. I walked her to the front of the school where the team met up. And i realised my opportunity window was closing. So I asked her if she liked anyone. She said maybe. I told her I liked someone in our first period. Then she asked "is that person near you?" I said yea. Then I told her. Pinky I like you. She blushed and she smiled. But i was confused as she did walk away a couple seconds after I told her. I stayed and she told me that practice is about to start. Jokingly I said ill run with you guys. They started to jog in the direction I was gonna go in. So I started to jog with them. She was so confused. Then I said bye and then proceeded to walk into a building next to the school. I went to my game and after that game I texted her. Me and her had the weirdest conversations. After awhile I asked her "what if I ever asked you out in the future. What would you say?" She answered with "I would probably say yes." Me being at home i tried not to be too excited about her answer. But i broke the plate I was using to eat. Then I told her I'll talk to her tomorrow at this festival the school was hosting. And she needed to be there for one of her classes. I went and I saw her. She looked absolutely beautiful. She usually had her hair up but this time it was down. And I loved it. She looked lovely that day. And after two hours, I asked her if we could give it a chance between us. Her face has lit up. She had no words. She said yes three times and tried to follow it up with something but couldn't. She then told me this was the first time shes gonna experience a relationship. And i told her we'll go slow with it. Me and her had many good/great moments playing uno and being weird with her to walking her home everyday. She was the cutest thing when playing uno or when she was being a weirdo. December rolls around and the relationship is going good and holding up strong. The month started with me her and her friends went to watch a basketball game at our school. The best 2 hours cause I was with her and her friends were my friends first btw but I was also there with my friends. Me and my friends were there only ones who understood basketball. As pinky and her friends didnt understand a single thing or how the game works. So the entire time I was exposing to pinky how the fouls and what the reg hand signals meant. But she made my first high school basketball game a memorable. Then comes our first date. That day was the best as we went to a Christmas themed carnival. She loves Christmas and i mean She loves it. But she got there earlier than I did as I got stuck in traffic. But when I got there me and her randomly ran into each other. So we wondered around the park looking for the Christmas tree our school had made. It took us ten minutes to find it. And when we found it, I had seen that there was a picture of me and her in an ornament. And I liked their picture hey had used in it. After that She got cold but sheer didnt want my sweater as She had her own and she didn't want to be that girlfriend. So She bought herself a hot chocolate. I didn't liked it yet i still drank some of it. She got annoyed that I was drinking it more than she was. So I let her have the rest of it. After about a half hour,we decided to eat. We went to a burger pave down the street. And as we got there a table opened up near the window. And we ordered our food. While we waited, we got to talk and just talk about things we wouldnt tell anyone else. As our food for to the table I pretty much almost instantly finished my food as she was barely taking her first bite. She was shooketh af. But after that the date was pretty much over as She needed to get home. But we took a picture infront of the big ass Christmas tree in the middle of the park. While I was taking the picture She had snuck five dollars into my pocket cause She felt bad that I payed for our food. The next week rolls around and on the Thursday She wanted to ask me something. She asked me if I want to go to get house and meet her doggos. I clearly said yea cause I love dogs. So the day comes and we walked to her house. And of course it's the odd one of the street. No wonder why she's a weirdo cause of the house on how odd it is. But she had shown me around and i put my things in her room. It was the cutest thing I've seen. Youtuber posters to tv show posters. Like shes a child but it was so adorable. After looking at her room. We went to her backyard to see the doggos. At first they did not like me as they barked and barked at me. But after awhile they stopped and they started coming to me instead of pinky. And she got jealous cause of it. After a half hour we went back inside. We exchanged gifts cause we weren't gonna see each other over the break. And the gift she got me I loved it. Candy with clothes and a card with pictures. The card was amazing with terrible handwriting. Yet I was able to read it. I got her a book with a long card and stuffed animal. She almost started to cry and It made me realise that man I really love this girl. She is just amazing. I got lucky to be with her. Most people would've wanted to f**k. But we literally played a board game. Let that sink in a second. Yea a board game crazy. She beat me thoe. I cry to thisday that I lost to get in a board game. And it was around two Ive been at her house for two hours. She said that her brother was about to get off school. I thought I should've left. So I decided to get my stuff yet I didn't leave. I was standing in the middle of her room as she also stood there with me. I grabbed one of her hats. It was one of those weird animal hats with gloves. And I weirdly put it on. She laughed and made fun of me. And then I kissed her. That kiss was magnificent. It was different. Then I hugged het. No I held her. Then she kissed me. It went back and forth for a little while. Then I had to leave as it was 3:10 and her family were possibly on their way home. And so I left. Two weeks pass we come back from break. Things took a turn for the worst. She wasn't talking to me. The Monday we returned was the last time I kissed her. That Thursday I let my emotions take over and I stupidly broke up with her over text. I regret it. But i can't change their past. But i can write the future. And make it a better tomorrow for myself.
