A Second Chance

I believe in Second Chances...❤️

I believe in that one saying - " if you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it's yours. If it doesn't, then it never was. "

I believe in all that. And I want to wake up one day and see that he's right there ready to actually love me. I know that at one point he really loved me. He tried the hardest to be with me no matter what, he'd get in trouble by his parents, and he didn't really care....     well that was my point of view.

Now after Six months of being official... and being in a nice relationship... I don't think he tries anymore, maybe because he doesn't love me anymore. Or maybe his parents have been influencing him more, I know he's still just a kid. And that's my fault how did I fall in love for a kid that's 2 years younger than me.

How did that happen.? When was the first time I fell for him... why am I feeling so much confusion right now... why did I kiss him ?! I know deep down, really deep down, I love him ❤️ and I love him a lot. But he doesn't show any effort anymore.... I don't know why... after 6 months together I kept falling in Love for him. And till this day I keep falling in love for him. I feel sorry.

He tells me that he want to be with me forever. And I want to be with him forever too. But it's hard I feel under pressure, and I feel so confused. People say that he's just not for me. And I know that's true. He deserves better. Why did he fall in love with me ? ! Why couldn't he fall in love with someone else or not fall in love with me at all.

I'm gonna take a decision I believe it good for me... because I hear it from a lot of people. And I'm going to see if he really does love me and if he really is meant to be mine, if we're really meant to be with each other. ❤️

After 6, beautiful months, in my point of view.... I'm going to set him free. ☹️ and if he really loves me and if he really wants to be with me he'll do even the impossible to be with me. He'll go against his parents, his friends and even the whole world 🌎 I know he would do it . Well at least I think he would do it .... I'm not so sure... anymore ....

Guess I'll have to find out.

I'm going to let him go. Hopefully he comes back, because I'm not going to stop loving him. He has won a place in my heart ❤️ or maybe we could just be friend both of those would work :/

🔐~|9-11-17|~❤️