Love That Could Last Forever [BoyxBoy]

You Make My Heart Skip A Beat

The second I opened my eyes to the winter morning light. I realized a few things that I don't remember happening. One, how did I get home? And second of all, why am I naked and sticky? Even if the first didn't worry me that much. The latter one did...I never sleep naked. And I don't ever have wet dreams. So what the fuck happened last night?

I got my answer moments later. When I heard a soft snore next to me. Someone was next to me. Someone was naked with me. I had sex with someone! Who did I sleep with? Oh god...Please don't let it be Logan. Don't let it be Logan. Oh please don't let it be Logan...

I held a baited breath, and I rolled my body over to the other side of the bed. So that way I got a good look at the person I slept with. Even if my nerves, and my head was pounding wildly. I needed to know the truth. I didn't want it to be with Logan. Or some stranger. It would be awkward. And I didn't like awkward. It was well...Awkward.

But what I saw was way worse than awkwardness stranger sex. Or even Logan sex. Because the person I saw on the other side of my bed...Is Angry Eyes. My dirty blonde, with deep enchanting green eyes. Was now naked as the day he was born. And sleeping like an angel. His body glimmered in the sunlight that shined through the window. And his barely covered body only made him look more like an angel.

But that didn't stop my heart from speeding up at an abnormal pace. I swear I could feel it trying to rip it's way out of my chest. Why you ask? Because I don't remember meeting up with Angry Eyes. I don't remember making up with him, or even having sex with him. Why was the one night I get drunk, I finally get the boy of my dreams? And I don't even fucking remember it. This world really is twisted. Nothing is fair.

But at least he wasn't mad anymore...Maybe things are going right...For once.

"Stop staring at me. I can't continue to sleep if you keeping doing it." My thoughts were broken by a muffled, cutesy voice. And the owner of said voice, was now staring up at me with sleepy eyes. Those eyes that made my insides melt like warm chocolate, and my heart ache dully.

I couldn't help but feel like this was some dream, and I would wake up to the cruel world. The world that didn't involve Angry Eyes being in my life anymore. And that wasn't something I looked forward to. I didn't even look forward to it before, and I sure don't now. So if this is a dream, please let me continue to dream for the rest of my lifetime.

"Sorry...I just...I don't know what to say. " I couldn't help but smile at the little eye roll he did. "It's been two years since I last saw you...It's a lot to take in." I stated, looking into his eyes shyly. I've never been this bashful about anything or anyone. Maybe that's because I've never had something so precious to me before, that I was so terrified I would lose it.

And trust me, I was terrified out of my mind that I would lose Angry Eyes again. I've done it once, I couldn't do it again...I wouldn't.

"It was a lot to take in then too. But at least you are handling it better than I did." Even though he was joking and there was a soft smile on his face. It didn't help at all with the blowing gut punch it sent through out my body. Guilt. Worst feeling to live with. And sleep killer for who knows how long.

The smile that was playing on my lips only seconds ago, was wiped off within a blink of time. And so was my happy mood. I suddenly felt worse than I have in I don't know how long. I felt like my insides were burning. And my heart was stabbed slowly with a jaded knife. And I've been stabbed before, this was worse. Much worse. Because this doesn't stop hurting after a while.

"Hey...I didn't mean it that way. I was just joki-" His gentle words were cut off by my own.

"But it's true, Kendall. You shouldn't have had to go through that. I was being selfish, just like you said. No, everything you said was true. I was just too stubborn to really listen." I was up and out of that bed in a flash. "But I'm not now. I ruined your life, Kendall...And I-I'll never forgive myself for it." I chocked on my sobs at the end. But I got out what I've been holding in for two whole years. It stung and was bubbling in agony.