Lost You

I

Sanji fisted the sheets while Zoro's thrusting him raw. He bit his lip as he endures the stinging sensation inside his butt. Zoro didn't prepare him and he can already feel his lower half being torn in half. 

He just pulled Sanji from smoking outside the deck watching the beautiful scenery of the sunset's sky mixing colors with violet and pink and some red-orange clouds. He puffed smoke when suddenly someone grabbed his arm causing his cigarette to fall from his fingers.

"What do you think you are doing you stupid marimo?" Sanji glared at sweating Zoro whose staring at him full of lust with his smokey grayish-green eyes; panting slowly and heavily. Sanji gulped and averted his eyes. 

He was about to pull another stick of cigarette from his pocket when Zoro grabbed him again and dragged him to the men's bedroom which leads to something that would definitely hurt him; both physically and emotionally.

'Shit I feel so awful. It fucking hurts! sticking it just when he pulled my pants down. Shitty marimo.'

Sanji grunted when Zoro hits his sweet spot. Unwilling moan left the blonde's mouth. Hearing Sanji's grunt, he smirked and banged the same spot again and again thinking Sanji would love it but little did he know, he hates it.

Sanji felt himself bleed and bit his lip until it turned into a purple plump one.

'Just fucking come already.' Sanji thought, still enduring the pain in his ass. Shutting his eyes tightly, tears wants to escape so bad but he held them.

'Ugh if I still have some time left yesterday and know this would happen, I would've prepared myself on my own.' Sanji's regretful thoughts. The swordsman didn't even bother checking the cook if he got a boner, which he doesn't have. 

With one last rough thrust, Zoro came inside Sanji's ass and got up, pulled his pants, and left the room leaving the messy cook panting. Sanji rolled his eyes at the door where the latter went out.

Sanji's still panting inside the room, naked with heavy-lidded eyes. Sweats streaming down his temple and his fingers wouldn't stop trembling.

"Ugh," he grunted as he forced himself to stand up to go inside the bathroom to wash himself up. Enduring all the pain; still manages to stand up.

As he stood up, blood mixing with cum flows down from his leg down to his thigh. He pursed his lips to a thin line and sighed. He inhaled a lungful of air and releasing it in one go. Ruffling his hair with frustration and went inside the bathroom still having a hard time walking normally.

As he finished his bath, he went outside to see the dark-starry night together with Mr. full moon reflecting its beauty on the wide ocean. Sanji smiled as he saw the beautiful scenery, it made him calm. Closing his eyes as he focused on listening to the peaceful waves.

He reached out to his back pocket and pulled a stick of cigarette from the pack and lit it up. Just when he puffed smoke, he heard someone's familiar laugh from the deck of Sunny. 

He tiptoed not wanting to make any noise that can distract the crew from laughing. He peeked and his mouth wide open, jaw dropped, also his cigarette barely used fell on the floor. 

He saw Zoro brush off Luffy's bangs, tucking behind his ear earning a toothful smile from him. There were the only ones still up, thinking their other crew members had already gone to sleep.

Zoro cupped Luffy's cheeks and kissed him.

Sanji witnessed the heart-breaking scene, covering his mouth with his hand, with wide and teary eyes from shock. His breathing hitched, causing him hard to breathe as he hid his body behind, his fingers trembling together with his stomach, churning. Just when he was about to leave, still covering his mouth with his hand, Zoro's words made him stop in his tracks.

"I love you."

Sanji quickly ran off silently, soft sobs were made as he dashed towards a crewmate who was still up doing some work for his weapon.

Sanji quickly jumped to him and hugged his waist causing the other to shriek and freak out because of the sudden jump, letting go of what he was holding.

"Stupid Sanji! what do you think you're doing! You scared the hell out of me--" as he turned around, he saw Sanji clinging tightly to his jumpers and sobs turns into hiccups. He pulled himself from Sanji and faced him. He wiped his hands on his work towel first before holding his cheek in his palm checking his eyes and wiping away his tears.

"What's wrong?" Usopp seriously questioned the cook still holding his cheeks delicately. Sanji refused to answer as he shook his head and let go of Usopp's hand to bury his head in the crook of Usopp's neck, still sobbing and hugging his waist.

Usopp didn't know what to do so he just rubbed and did a couple of pats on his back to calm the latter down. They are at the main deck. Chopper's inside his room making some new medicines and Robin's reading. Franky's inside the ship checking if there's something wrong with Sunny. He explained to Sanji where their other crews were, trying to make a conversation with the cook. He realized his thoughts were wrong thinking their crew members are already sleeping.

When Sanji calmed down, he breathes in deeply and sighed loudly. Usopp offers him to sit down in front of him properly and he nodded. Crossing his legs and looked down, not minding the tingling sensation he was feeling from earlier's activity. Usopp's patiently waiting for him to talk about what happened.

"You know I love him, right?" Sanji started and Usopp flinched. 

"Well, I had an idea haha." He awkwardly laugh and rubbed his nape. Directing his attention to his left work, he just cleans them and tucked them again inside his personal box.

"You know who I am talking about, right?" Sanji made sure Usopp's getting him. He wants to let the latter know what he's feeling, he had enough of keeping his feelings, afraid of them bursting into the wrong people-- person.

Usopp nodded. He swatted away Sanji's bangs away and wiped the bud of sweat forming around his forehead. He reached out to his clean towel hanging on a chair right beside him, he used it for wiping the blonde's tears as well as sweat remaining. Sanji strained a smile and said his thanks to the sniper which he received a nod.

"Of course, it's Zoro, right? but you know, He and Luffy..." Usopp hesitated and Sanji looked down before he sighed.

"I know. I saw them earlier. It's an accident, really. That's the reason why I cried." Sanji awkwardly laughed as tears started forming in his eyes. "Pitiful, right?" his voice cracked, looking directly at Usopp's eyes.

Usopp didn't hesitate and hugged him tightly enough for Sanji to feel comfortable in his arms. Rubbing his back gently and a couple of pats. Sanji hiccuped and Usopp just did it again and again causing Sanji to fall asleep in his arms with dried tears on his cheek as well as soaked jumpers. He got tired of bawling his eyes out, he's tired of everything.

Tired of being a sex toy.

Zoro got back from the deck earlier than Luffy, leaving him having fun watching the sea monsters eat one another. Seeing them clearly since tonight's a full moon while sitting on Sunny's head. Zoro smiled and left not saying anything to Luffy because he doesn't want to distract him.

He stopped in his tracks when he saw Usopp holding Sanji in his arms and Sanji's arms curled around Usopp's waist, sleeping. He flinched the moment he saw them, not knowing why.

Even though he's far away from them, he noticed Sanji's puffy eyes shutting closely clearly. He wrinkled his forehead and was about to go near them when Usopp carefully carried Sanji bridal style, afraid waking up the cook as he went on his way to the men's bedroom.

Zoro abruptly stopped, holding his chest, feeling something aching inside.

He breathed in-out, continuing it as the aches faded.

'Maybe I should confront this to Chopper later.'

and went back to Luffy's side, forgetting why he was getting inside in the first place.