To You

Silence speaks,

but not in words.

It screamed at me for days.

I do not wish that horror

upon anyone but myself.

I will always remember the way you laughed

the way the waves sparkled in the sun

the way the stars shone on through the night.

There once was hope,

and I saw it in everything.

There once was hope, 

and I saw it in you.

And then.

I will always remember the way you left me behind

the way the waves grew larger and swept me away

the way the stars gave up and surrendered to dawn.

My heart still beats,

still pounds in my chest,

hammering and hammering,

wanting to be free.

But my love

my life 

ended a long time ago.

The world is broken

with or without me.

But now you laugh

only without me.

And so.

You will not search,

but if you did,

nowhere

would you find me.