[kiss me again - we are the in crowd]
The sound of screaming teenage girls filled my ears as they introduced the next song. Everything was in place: they were all on stage, there was a crowd of screaming girls who had been counting down the days until they got to see them, and I was here just like I told them I would be.
But it was a lot more than just that. The picture was painted how it was supposed to be, but everything was wrong on the inside. His face was just as it was two weeks ago when we said our goodbyes at the airport except now it was bringing a feeling of emptiness. This wasn't the same Luke I had seen play last month. This wasn't the one who was jumping around, getting completely lost in the music. The Luke I was now seeing was lost in a train of thought and it was obvious to everyone that he was off tonight.
It had been two weeks since we last spoken, and I now see that it had extremely affected the both of us. He was persistent with the calls and texts, but I wasn't giving into him. If we were really going to work everything out then it was going to be in person and not over the phone where either of us could say things we didn't mean. He finally caught on that I was ignoring him, but now I was positive that he was also ignoring me in attempt to make me be the one to crack and begin the apologies, even though I had nothing to apologize for.
I will admit that I might have overreacted a tiny bit, but I couldn't help it. I wasn't denying the fact anymore that I liked Luke way more than I should. I was just getting too used to having him around all the time again, and I had let my guard down thinking that he might just feel the same way about me as I did to him. I was just caught up in a day dream and it unfortunately caused all of this, so maybe it really was my fault and not his? Either way, I didn't want to leave this venue until one of us decided to get the courage and try to work this out.
My thoughts had distracted me from the whole ending of the concert. My eyes were focused on the show but I wasn't paying attention to what was happening and it made me miss their closing song. Next thing I knew, girls were flooding out of the venue talking about how they wanted to wait by the back door in hopes to catch a glimpse of them. It was still so weird to see girls freaking out over my best friends because I didn't see them as 'celebrities' in any way. It didn't seem possible for something like that to ever happen.
'We described you to the backstage security guard so you can come back now and re-unite with us!'
I responded to Ashton saying I would be there in a second, than tried to squeeze my way through the mob of girls. I didn't even realize how many people were really here, and how many were giving me weird looks considering I was going the complete opposite way of each of them.
"Can I help you?" The guard asked me as I arrived to the back door. Right as I was about to answer his question, a look of realization washed over his face and he backed up. "My bad, miss. Go right in."
"Oh-uh, thank you!" I stuttered, quickly walking through the door and towards the sign that said 'Dressing Room'. I took a second to calm myself down before excitedly pounding on the door. I was more excited than nervous to see them again. There was just the small feeling of being unwanted by Luke that was bugging the shit out of me since he was the only one I wanted to feel wanted by.
"Xan!" Ashton screamed as his face appeared on the other side of the door. I heard shouting from inside the room as he pulled me into a bone-crushing hug. Seconds later, there were multiple others arms hugging me also. I looked up to see Calum and Michael with big smiles on their faces as they held onto me.
"Can't breathe!" I squeaked, gasping for air every chance I got. I was more than happy to see them but their sweaty, hot bodies were making it hard for me to breathe.
