Lost

The Beginning

First of all let me introduce my very best friend, Jessie. We've know each other since we were little, and we are still friends. She's younger than me.. but only one year difference , so not that bad. An important thing about our friendship is that we were in two seperate schools,which hardened the thing to meet up and stuff. But, I guess I wouldn't be here where I am without her. I owe it all to her, even if we had ups and downs. 

It's Tuesday, the very first day of 9th grade. Me and one of my former friends get in the class. I won't mention her name, she's not that important. Well, everything starts with a Math class, why not? We're Math-Info class so yeah... well, of course why to say hi and get to know everyone, the teacher starts with the lesson. He wouldn't miss any of his classes and lessons. I can tell that everyone was distracted , not paid attention to what the teacher was saying. 'IT IS THE FIRST DAY, COM'ON'. Anyway, the class ended somehow, so we started fooling around during the break. I could see the 'haters' I had in former class, started talking to the new classmates and I could hear them saying things about me. So the year was already awful. Me and my so-called friend started being by us only, not paying attention to the others. We managed to find a new friend in the class, just because she didn't look good, like the DIVA's of the class (lol). We were already 3 friends. But this didn't last too long. As I said I started being too open up, couldn't control my mouth, started being like the DIVA's.  I felt awful being in a different part of the class. Our friendship wouldn't last too long, they got jealous of a weird thing. And they even got Jessica in, so we started hating them. But thankful for their hate, my friendship with Jessica got stronger:).
This was the moment I got to sit in the other part of the classroom, close enough to the diva's. Aaaand things changed way too hard. I became a role player. I wanted to be someone in their eyes, so at least I would have company to talk to. I was afraid being all alone. But was that a good idea? Looking back to it, it wasn't.  People always try to do something, so they won't be alone and they will have fun. But, you can get lost inbetween the roles you play in front of different peoples. You may see why. Later. This 9th grade was all but not fun. Just pretended to like it. But , then 10th grade came. Awwh, and what a fake love story with it. (Forgot to mention a thing. I had this year a 5 month relationship, but wasn't in love ;) )