Regret

Part 1

"Despite my own guilt and regret being the primary thing that keeps me from truly living, I write this memory just in case I forget what my life really was."
Those were the words written on the first part of his old diary, old but quite unused.

"I am John Tavern, just a man. Divorced, left by my children.
I was born on July 8, 1967.

I've basically spent my whole life trying to correct my life decisions, most of them, very bad.. Robbery, Early marriage, and even getting scammed for a few bucks out of desperation. I lost a lot. *End of writing*

He himself never had the courage to face his life. He was even suicidal in his late teens.

"When I was married, I loved my wife so much.. but after a few years, exactly on our anniversary day, I realized she was having an affair. An affair with some random guy she'd been meeting for months..

I was devastated, not knowing what to do, I decided to end my life. For the second time I tried, but failed. It left many scars. Inside and outside."

He decided to face his beloved wife after trying to end his life...

His wife's name was Cassandra, perfect for a tall and confident woman like her.

"Cassandra: John I've been having an affa-
Me: I know.
Cassandra: I want a divorce then.
Me: Ok."
"I was trying to hold back my sorrow and tears but then I finally gave in."

"Next my wife DID leave me.. she decided to leave our children to me. Stacie and Jack. I became an alcoholic. Regretted it immediately..."

"At dinnertime Stacie asked about me and Cassandras divorce, since she was a little kid I didnt bother to answer.."

But when my teenage son did,

PART 2 COMING SOON