Exposed

Click Clack It just got dark........Tears Falling from my face . Pain. hurt. fear. I was broken inside . My heart was crying out to be repaired . My mind was gone . My soul was ready to leave . Jail ,gated community a bunch of bullshit . I said to myself Tom used to be so sweet and loving . The smell of his cologne brought joy to my nose . I cherished Tom who took my virginity . I trusted Tom and we was so in love . A summer I will never forget. Tom showed me his true colors. He told me that if I don't do this or that he was going to expose me . Tom was blackmailing me and making me sneak to his house at night for sex . My mom was wondering why I kept leaving the house . She was angry and ready to beat on me. Loretta said ¨Diana is there anything going on that I should know ¨I said no mom . She could see that something wasn't right with me . But I just couldn't tell her what was going on . I was sitting on my step, Tom said ¨Yo get your shoes were leaving ¨ . I was staring at him thinking to myself that I didn't want to go nowhere Tom said to me ¨You got 5 minutes or imma hit you with that...(Exposure) . As we were walking to the place that we were going to he said ¨walk faster before I punch on you¨. The place was cold,uncomfortable and unfamiliar. I had no choice but to just shut up and listen . Other kids around saw how he was treating me . ¨Hehe haha¨ it was so amusing to them .Whore,Hoe ,Slut,Thot,Slida were the names I was being called by everybody; everyday. These words stuck to my body like some glue . Feelings and emotions jumping high. I was so scared of Tom. He raised his hands up numerous of times when he felt as though I was disobeying him. The performers Ike & Tina Turner were the reflection's I saw in the mirror . Then that same summer it was August ,I got a text from this Tom saying ¨I'm a Slut ¨because his friend Dave, who I thought I trusted, had a video of me and had actually sent it to everybody . I came outside that same day and everybody was laughing ,whispering, and looking at the video . I was just ready to give up on life and kill myself . Tom was already blackmailing me then Dave made it worst . My heart was beating fast; my legs were shaking . I ran in the house and cried. Life was just pointless to me . I was mentally hurt and abused . This really fucked me up in the head . Just give me the gun so I can pull the trigger . Boom.....