Mental Corruption

Diary Entries

Dear Diary,

I'm starting to show signs of schizophrenia. I haven't been to the doctors yet, but I plan to go soon. I shall keep my self and my condition updated in here. Hope fully i'm just being paranoid, but ill find out soon.

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Dear Diary,

I went to the doctors. She said its too early to determine if what I'm going through is indeed schizophrenia, I have to have been showing signs for at least six months, and I've only recently started showing signs that I know of. Perhaps I'm just delusional.

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Dear Diary,

Its been two months. I've spent most of my time indoors only leaving the comfort of my home when needed. I haven't been myself lately, I've been feeling empty, nothing satisfies me anymore. I've scheduled an appointment for the doctors again I just hope she has an explanation for what I'm going through.

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Dear Diary,

I don't know how I should be feeling right now. My suspicions have been confirmed, the doctor says it's schizophrenia. I feel a weight being lifted off of my shoulders, but I feel... disconsolate

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Dear Diary,

Mom's been calling. I can tell she's worried about me, although she has nothing to worry about, she doesn't know about my condition yet. Her constant paranoia is utterly aggravating.

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Dear Diary,

It's been three months. Mom stopped calling. In fact I haven't heard from her since the last time I wrote in here. I did see her though, once. During our brief meeting, we discussed my condition. Instead of being greeted with sympathy and solace, I was met with shame. That was the end of our encounter. Since then, I have cut ties wit her, and I hope everyone else will too.

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Dear Diary,

It's been awhile since I've updated you on my mental health. It's gotten worse. I've started seeing and hearing things. I've looked up the symptoms of schizophrenia, and it's common. What I've been seeing can be described as a benign presence, but when it speaks to me --

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Dear Diary, I think i'm broken. I can't function like a human anymore. Another symptoms that comes with schizophrenia is suicidal thoughts. My mind hasn't gone there yet, but the voices have. Recently I've been seeing my mother. There have been so many times when I reach out for her, but she's nothing but an apparition. I've called her, but she never answers. She's the only person I had. I've never felt so alone before.

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I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't do anything but listen to my thoughts. They've gotten more violent. I can't go more than a few hours without thinking about ---

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