Letting Go

Hurt

^^ Ryder

Ryder's pov
Pain. That's all I could feel, other than the numbness. All I wanted was to leave this stupid pack. I have already lashed out and tried. I've screamed, cried, and struggled. No one has ever tried to help, me that is. There have been people who have just joined in.  No one can help. They would just get kicked out. My wolf is gone. I think until I heal but I'm not sure. Last time I heard her was, I think four weeks ago.
  "Please, don't do this. What did I do wrong. Just let me, let me have a break. Please." I beg as tears come to my eyes. I can't stop it. I try but I can't. I beg but they ignore it. A man has come in and is in the corner with the equipment. Or as I call it. The torture devices. I can't breathe. I'm panicking. He comes over with a chain coated with silver. He hits me but it doesn't burn. I don't know how but it doesn't. He is just as confused.
  "How the fuck did you do it bitch. It supposed to hurt." The guard Luke yelled out. He continues, " This will hurt though you fucker." He yells more as he grabs a suringe and I see him grab bottles. No. No, no, no ,no. It's wolfsbane and silver. As he comes closer I start screaming. He injects it into my veins and I feel it burning.
I finally grit my teeth and choke out the words "Feel the burn."
I spit in his face. He looks angrier. Then I feel his fist connect with my face. My ears start ringing and my vision gets blurry as everything goes black. Just as I smell it. A mix of citrus and roses. With a hint of the woods. Mate.